The Hill Scene

Sunday sinner

Despite Ophelia's sudden realisation that maybe church wasn't so great after all, she still had to attend the next day, maybe some churches were good, Alice had mentioned going to a few that were good...if only all of them could be. The girls knew that it was probably a good idea to completely ignore each other in church, sure they wanted to tackle the lack of acceptance but it was still a scary thing for them, they hadn't actually discussed what they were so weren't sure if they were fighting for acceptance for them or others. Maybe Alice knew and Ophelia thought that she knew, but she couldn't get her mother out of her head. She'd already lost her dad, she couldn't lose her mother too. Ophelia didn't really listen to the church service, she was busy in her own mind. Why did this have to happen to me? I'd rather be anything else other than a girl who likes girls. Hey, if I had a teen pregnancy, at least my mother would be disappointed in something I did rather than disappointed in who I am. But for that to happen, I'd need a guy...and I don't think I want that...I want Alice.

Alice also couldn't bring herself to focus on the service, she could only think of Ophelia. She felt sorry for her, she was so confused about what she believed in, scared of what her mother would say. Alice didn't blame her, Ophelia's mother didn't seem that nice upon first introduction. Alice liked Ophelia, she really did, she knew how she felt but she also knew that Ophelia didn't know how she felt. She didn't want to push for Ophelia to be with her if it meant that it would upset her mother, therefore upsetting Ophelia, but she also didn't want to be hidden away. The whole situation was troubling her, she just wanted to be with Ophelia, far away from anyone else. Right now Ophelia was hiding her away, from school, from her mother, all Alice wanted was to have a normal relationship, even just a normal friendship where they didn't worry about rumours. But that didn't seem like a possibility right now, but it would be sad to let other people dictate there happiness, they deserved it.

It was ironic that both girls were thinking about being together while sat in a church that didn't accept that sort of thing, sat next to there parents who surely wouldn't understand. Alice's parents were definitely not as hateful as Ophelia's mother was about it, but that didn't mean they liked it or understood it. They both knew what they wanted, and they knew they're parents would no agree, but maybe it was worth it. Ophelia had never thought anyone was worth it before, everyone always let her down, but with Alice she didn't think it was possible for her to let her down. She was too perfect, too kind. Ophelia knew it wasn't right to hide her friendship with Alice, she'd been a bad friend and she wanted to change it. Sure she was scared, but she was more scared of Alice giving up on her, not that Alice ever could.

The service finally came to an end and both girls left feeling tearful, though they couldn't show it. The idea that their parents loved them so much, but just one secret they were keeping could completely change how they saw them, it hurt to think about. Alice knew that her parents wouldn't do anything drastic about the situation, but she'd definitely get a dirty look from them every now and then if she spoke about Ophelia. They couldn't keep going on like this, they weren't a hundred percent sure what they had, but they knew it was something special and they didn't want to let it die just because of other people, they'd just have to deal with it. They knew what they had to do, but Alice questioned whether she was ready, more importantly she questioned whether Ophelia would be.