IN MY HEAD

CHAPTER TWENTY- 21st CENTURY SUCKS

CHAPTER TWENTY- 21st CENTURY SUCKS

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I was a bit happy when I found out I was the only one at home.  I dreaded going home to meet my father sitting in the living room, who knows what could possibly happen again. I climbed the stairs to my room and all the memories came flooding in again. It felt like I found myself in the same scene again in reality. From my towel being pulled from my chest, to Pablo shoving me to my bed and then him entering me forcefully was the worst pain. Till they all took turns to assault me and I haven't forgotten those wicked slaps from those beasts.

I stopped myself from crying as I made my way to the bathroom to take a quick cold shower. Today had been a long day, I reminisced over what happened today. After freshening up, I switched on my phone and turned on my data. Different notifications popped up from my social media apps.

I opened my whatsapp app to receive over three hundred messages from class of 2023.

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I hope you both know that she's in this group chat.

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Hmmmm, I heard from a genuine source that Jason and Riele had slept with each other.

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No wonder she was limping throughout today. I knew that limp wasn't ordinary.

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So that timid tiny girl is not a virgin. She looked so innocent, who knew she would be sleeping around. May God deliver some human beings oo.

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Aghh, I never said she was sleeping around oo. The only thing I said was that she is having an affair with Jason.

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Who would have thought that, the timid little girl that sits with Stephanie is a whore.

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Haven't you heard? It's always the quiet ones that do the most surprising stuffs.

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All I know is that I wouldn't believe any of you until Jason and Rie opens their mouth and say they are in a relationship.

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Abeg, both of you should shut up.

I scrolled through their messages and saw different messages from people I don't know or haven't spoken to, calling me a whore and different names while a few supported me but does it matter? The majority believed the rumour.

The only person who could spread such rumours was Temi. Only God knew why she hated me so much. Yeah, we had differences few months ago but she shouldn't have taken it this far. Could it be she had a liking towards Jason and she feels I'm standing in the way. If she wants Jason, she could have him. By the way, I didn't have any form of feeling towards him in any way.

They say life is meant to be enjoyed because we only live once but how are we expected to enjoy life when different circumstances makes life hard and horrible for us to enjoy. This world was indeed a wicked world. It really was, I wondered how a fellow human derives joy in making their fellow humans suffer. I had never imagined myself going about telling other people lies about another person, it was very wrong.

The 21st century was not for the pure and innocent, it was meant for those who had a little hardened heart or those certain people who didn't allow what others say about them to get into their heads. The twenty first century wasn't for people like me.

I did not want to go to that school anymore. It was a living hell. I couldn't convince my parents to change my school, so there was only one solution. That only solution was going to making me more free and happier. It was the best way to solve this problem.

I left the whatsaapp group, switched off my phone, opened the device and carried my sim card. I rummaged through the drawer searching for a pair of scissors. I cut my sim card into tiny bits and discarded it into the waste bin close to the door to my room.

I made my way to the kitchen, opened the cabinets searching for the best utensil to carry out my plan. I found it and smiled. I went to the store found a bottle of water and gulped the whole bottle.

I grabbed the knife from the kitchen counter with shaky hands. If I didn't do it now then I might never do it. I said a short prayer asking God for his forgiveness, as I slowly pierced the knife through my veins, blood dripped slowly from my wrists as regret began to find it's way to my heart. I shouldn't have done it, I thought it was easier for one to kill his or herself but it didn't seem as it easy it looked. Tears began to well up in my eyes.

I was a selfish human, I couldn't leave my mother alone to be continuously abused and manipulated by my father. I was her only child but I had broken her heart by trying to murder myself. Infact why should I pity her, it was obvious I was not important to her, my father was more important. Killing myself would release the burdens she had on her shoulders.

I felt pain on my arms but the pain couldn't be compared to the one I felt in my heart. Being a neglected child, abused, unloved and bullied in school wasn't easy to handle. I couldn't live in this world were every situation I found myself reminded me of each problem I passed through. School and home reminded me about my circumstances.

For all I know the cause of my misfortune was Eve. The woman who couldn't control herself. I've learned from that chapter in the Bible that self-control was essential in every human characteristic.

I was loosing so much blood but I didn't care, atleast wasn't it better to be in heaven or hell than to die slowly in this cruel world. My eyes were already dancing in it's socket, I knew I was loosing consciousness but atleast I would be a lot happier in the after world. I was getting cold, I could feel myself dying little by little.

"Riele!" I heard a familiar voice I knew all my life call my name, but I couldn't reply back.

I lost consciousness.

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