The cut that always bleeds //Heesun//

13: the after-cherry

Heeseung Pov

I just stare into his eyes for a while.
Suddenly I see what we did last night. I can see it clearly in his eyes. I can feel his lips on mine when I remember it.
When I get no response from him, I grab his wrist.
I can see the confused and surprised look on his face but I don't feel like there's time to explain.
I start to go towards the bathroom with fast steps and I pull him with me.
He stumbles a few times as he can't follow up with me.
I push him against a wall next to the bathroom door with my hands left and right from his head. I look down at him, realizing he looks kinda scared, which I never wanted to cause...
But I just needed to do this and it was necessary.
"Sunoo. Sorry for the quick action. Do you remember anything from the last night?"
He has his mouth slightly open very overwhelmed with all of the things that happened.
"I do.. I remember everything I guess.."
I lick my lips, getting very nervous.
"Sunoo I was drunk. I'm straight."
Sunoo nods. It doesn't seem like he really wants that to be the truth.
"Heeseung..I thought about this since yesterday, the whole night and all the time til now. I'm so sorry that this happened but ... I think I like you ... Really like"
My face darkens. It's kinda good to know that he isn't hoeing around but if he's catching feelings it could influence so much. But Honestly...

I've always pushed everything away that seemed like a burden to my dream. I ignored things that make me happy to become the best version to myself. I always ignored the needs I have to finally debut and train even harder.
But this time.. This time, the thing I really need is right infront of me. And we're chasing the same dream.
Now. I think this might be something I can take without running everything... At least I hope so.
"I liked it so much.. please give me a chance to find out if it was just the alcohol or if .. If there's more."
I see the cute boy nodding nervously.

Once more, I feel like the whole world circles around him. I bow down a little bit and kiss him again.
I get the feeling I had last night again. It makes me feel so great and I really wish I could just feel every single part of his body right now. His lips are more than enough but still I want to get more of him...
I really adore him right now and I put my hands on his waist again. He's wearing a shirt today, so I can feel his skin even better. I can feel the warmth clearly and it makes me sweat a little bit.
I can feel and hear how he let's out a small gasp.
It makes me feel like I'm alive again.
When I talked about pretty flowers and how they have to get enough water...
Now I feel like I was a dead rose that he made bloom again. I open my eyes for a only a second and I see him having his eyes closed. He looks so surrendering.
I close my eyes again to feel every little movement he does better and I come a bit closer to him.
I bring some distance between our faces and I look him directly in the eyes.

"How do you feel?"
He asks me with an unstable voice. I know exactly what he wants to hear, but I'm still straight and I don't want him to think we would marry in the future or something.. I just don't wanna do anything wrong. Not with him.
"It felt awesome. But we should start our training now, or else we maybe have to lose someone of our team."
I push myself away from the wall and stand a meter infront of him. He looks so small compared, my heart feels warm again.
"Yeah.. Sure we should"
Sunoo looks around to see if anyone else is there, but luckily no one spotted them.
As soon as they leave to select the other members of their unit, I pull down his shirt over his butt.
I don't like how some people here always stare.. it's disgusting.
We walk with some distance between each other back to the kitchen to get Sunghoon and Ta-ki.

We head towards the practice room and I can feel a hand on my shoulder, pulling me down a little bit.
"Hey you two. That wasn't the first time you disappeared together, Huh? Yeah we know that you two went to the bathroom last night. But don't annoy me with details, was ist good? Anyone pregnant?"
Sunghoon says, looking from one boy to the other.
"Shut up!"
I growl, taking a look at Ta-ki who gladly walks a few meters infront of us.
"We kissed, that's it. Nothing exciting, okay?"
I kind of hissed and I look over to Sunoo.
He seems embarrassed again, I feel so sorry for that. But honestly, when Sunghoon finds out that we both really like each other, we'd literally get made fun of the whole time.
Sunghoon just laughs, not believing what I just said.
"Whatever. But use a condom for god's sake!"
He kicks Ta-ki but hugs him right after.

We arrive at the practice room and I start dancing right away. We have a lot to do, since Sunghoon and I switched parts after the directors recommend us to do so.

3rd Person Pov

All of the Fake-Lovers sit exhausted on the floor after two hours of training hard.
Ta-ki and Sunoo are cuddling tight because Ta-ki let's out some whines over and over again because his muscles hurt so bad.
Sunoo wants to comfort him as good as possible and gives him a few kisses on the forehead.
Heeseung looks at them, adoring how cute Sunoo takes care of the others. It's truly fascinating that he's so happy all the time and still manages to make others smile too.

Sunoo suddenly gets up and starts dancing while having really stable vocals.
Everyone in the room, including himself is shocked by that.
Heeseung jumps up from the ground .
"Sunoo! That was amazing. If you sing like that on the stage no one will beat us!"
Sunoo laughs happy.
"Sadly that wasn't on purpose... I don't think I can do it again.."
Heeseung covers Sunoos mouth with his hand.
"Sh Sh! Of course you can do that again, believe in yourself!"
Sunoo laughs from heart and sits down again, between Sunghoons legs.
"I'll try my best, I promise."