The cut that always bleeds //Heesun//

19: not that easy

3rd Person Pov

Heeseung slams his fist against the wall. He gets so angry, but can't even tell if it's at himself, K or even Sunoo.
He takes a deep breathe and walks back into practice.
Both of them are able to ignore the situation and concentrate on their work.

At the same time at a different practice room, K screams at his members.

Ni-ki is crying already since K is always extra strict with him.
K thinks that Ni-ki has so much potential and he needs to unfold it.
He wants to push him over the limit and get him to debut.
Sadly, that's just too much for a 14 year old boy.
He doesn't understand why K keeps an eye on him.

Hanbin gives everyone a comforting hug and asks K to calm down. He's K's only Hyung, so K doesn't really have a choice.

Jay tries to do some strechtes on the side to distract himself. He also thinks that Ni-ki deserves more love as the maknae of the unit, but he also doesn't want to mess with K. He always got along with him.
And since he wants to test everyone's nerves this evening already, he doesn't want to provoke unnecessarily.

K has an argument with Hanbin for a few minutes, but they make up already.

K leaves the room in their break and fills up his water bottle. The thoughts in his head are just about the same topic again and again.
"Sunoo is actually so sweet. I'm definitely still disgusted by gay people but he's really nice. It's kinda hard to change my way of thinking after growing up like this.
He's so girl like and really likes to get touched, Aish. I wonder if I'm able to gain more of his attention when I do as I planned tonight. My plan is just brilliant. I start with drinking a little bit and then I take Sunoo and--"

"Hyung!"
K turns around, facing Ta-ki. He runs up to his favorite hyung and wraps his arms around him. K strokes his head.
"Practice is so exhaustinnnnng! At least I can watch Sunoo Hyung and Heeseung Hyung, they're so cute :)"
K raises an eyebrow and looks down to him.
"What do you mean ta-ki? Have you ever seen their lips touch? ... Or even other things?"
Ta-ki looks confused. He jumps up on K's arms.
"I don't know. I just know that they're very cute sometimes. But today is different. They don't really talk."

K just nods and holds his little brother.
"He's giving me more and more reasons."

While K is gone, Jungwon sneaks into the DNA practice room. He giggles as he sits down next to Jay and starts to cuddle with him out of the blue.
Jay isn't really used to it, so he just stands still in confusion.
"Hyung I'm not allowed to tell you but I need to tell someone."
He grins and waits for an reaction of the elder.

Jay just blinks a few times.
After a few seconds of silence he decides to go with Jungwons flow.
"Go on."
He orders and jungwon clears his throat.
"I think K hyung and Sunoo hyung fell for each other. I know how it sounds but have you seen those two? I'm amazed by them. I saw them cuddling this morning and since I got closer to Sunoo recently, I know that he really likes tall guys like K. And let's be honest, his muscles aren't that bad either."

Jay is more shocked about the news than expected. He knows that Sunoo likes tall guys, it wasn't that hard to notice. But instead of hearing about K, he expected to hear stories about Heeseung.
He thought it's obvious that he and sunoo are very close, but maybe it was illusional.

Jungwon gets kind of disappointed because Jay didn't give him a proper reaction. A shocked gasp or at least a "aww" would've been great.

K walks in again and tells Jungwon to leave. Seems like sunoo is really one of the only persons K is nice to.

Later that day, Heeseung and Sunoo still haven't talked.
Heeseung feels very bad about it so he tries to give Sunoo a good feeling about him again.
He's cooking ramen right now and puts it in front of sunoo on the table.
Sunoo looks up at him.
"Not hungry."
Heeseung sighs.
"You didn't eat much this morgen. And nothing since. Please take care."

Sunoo gets definitely touched by his words and actions but he told himself to be more careful when it comes to forgiving people.

He's still hurt and Heeseung should know.

"I'm not hungry."

Sunoo gets up and leaves. In conclusion heeseung feels even worse. Not just the fact that making food for sunoo was a fail, also that sunoo just leaves to avoid him hurts.

Heeseung sits down alone and starts to eat the Ramen.
He doesn't dare to close his eyes, because all he can see is kissing Sunoos sweet lips. Touching his soft skin.
He didn't even get the chance to see or feel Sunoos whole body yet, what a shame.
Heeseung never considered the thought of getting closer to a boy. The chances of catching feelings or kissing a guy were pretty low already, but now he sometimes even thinks about touching Sunoo.
A loving touching, but definitely more than cuddling.

He hits himself every time he thinks about that before falling asleep.
Sunoo really has some power over him.

As Heeseung is deep in his thoughts, someone sits next to him. He overhead their conversation and pulls out the strings of his hoodie while watching his Hyung eat.

"You deserve better Hyung."

"Hm?"

"He's really dramatic. Why can't he realize you are trying your best? I'm sorry for you. I hope you realize he's not worth it."