The cut that always bleeds //Heesun//

18: liar.

3rd Person Pov

The next day, all of them are eating their breakfast together again.
The night before, Heeseung stared at K and Sunoo for a while. But he left and went to his bed, as soon as he realised they're not going to notice him anyway.
It's not like he wanted that, but his heart just hurt way too much watching them.

This morning it's not different at all.
Sunoo is sitting next to Jungwon, talking about hand sizes again.
Heeseung is surrounded by his friends too, but he couldn't tell them about his feelings at all.
And honestly, the reason for that is himself.
He could've been together with Sunoo by now, could've told everyone by now, but he just messed up.
And that feeling sucks.

Ta-ki suddenly gets up, trying to announce something.
"Since most of you are here now, I'd like to say something! Ni-ki and I had the idea that we should appreciate each other more before another one gets eliminated. So we'd like to make an evening were we just play games and chat with each other^^ just like real friends."
His cute korean isn't good yet, but kind of understandable.

Sunoo gets up too, so excited.
"We'll definitely do that! It's going to be so much fun!"
He looks at everyone, expect Heeseung.
Ouch.

The announced "news" weren't pretty shocking to the others, since Ta-ki talked about it for weeks. He tried to keep it a secret but couldn't help himself and told a few people already.

Sunghoon grins and claps with jay.
These two definitely have something else in mind...

After everyone finished eating, the units are preparing to train again.
Sunoo is still a little bit sick, but tried to participate in training today.
Heeseung realizes that it's nonsense to go on like this.
So he takes Sunoos waist and pushes him outside the room.

Sunoo is kinda shocked but just let's Heeseung do what he wants to do.
He looks at him with the most innocent eyes ever. Maybe even a little bit scared.
Heeseung looks down at him, feeling a pain in his chest.
He never wanted to hurt Sunoo and that it escalated like that just makes him feel like a monster.

"Sunoo I'm so sorry. I just wanted the best for our team and especially for you, I didn't realize I was going too far. But now I know, please forgive me. I shouldn't have forced you to continue when you were already exhausted. I'm genuinely sorry. Please."

Sunoo looks down at his hands, then up to Heeseungs eyes again.
He gulps, removes a hair strand from his eyes and opens his mouth slowly.

"I understand. I understand that you wanna save the team and that you really wanna win, Heeseung. But you hurt me a lot and I don't want you to think that it's okay to let me down like this. I understand that you're still uncomfortable with a guy kissing you and that I wanna be close to you, but the last few days I realized, I gotta thing about me too.
I will work with you and listen to you when it comes to training, but as a person... You'll have to win me again."

He looks at him, feeling so much better now that he said it.
He can't even tell if it feels right or not, it was just what he wanted to say for a while.

Heeseung completely fell for Sunoos words at the beginning, thinking he'll just forgive him like that.
He looks at him, very serious.

"Okay. I did that once, I can do it again. No problem."

Sunoo is still looking at Heeseung, but a lot more hurt now. His eyes changed from curiosity and interest to a specific type of disappointment.

Heeseung is very confused by the sudden change in Sunoos eyes.
He never tried to pull a guy before and always told himself that Sunoo doesn't make a lot of difference to a girl.
But it's not as easy as he thought.

"Do you really think it's all about that?
I told you about my concerns, about my health problems and Asthma. I shared one of the most traumatic moments in my life with you, were my "friends" didn't accept a no. Still you only thought about winning this stupid test.
I understand that I-land and debuting is so important to you, but at some point it's just enough!
Winning is important to you, but it can't be more important than my HEALTH.
I'm sorry but you'll have to gain my trust again. I'm hurt, honestly."

Heeseung narrows his eyes.
"Is that what K Hyung told you?!"

Sunoo opens his mouth in disbelief.
"How can he still try to push the guilt onto other people?! I thought he understands. What a liar."

"At least he treats me right now."

Sunoo enters the practice room again. He doesn't want date K in any way, but saying that seemed to be the only thing to reach Heeseungs ears.
And it did.