N.R. One Shots

Sorry

"I WISH YOU'D JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Her voice echoes along the long empty passageway. You shout back from the living room, "WHY WOULD I WHEN YOU WERE DOING SUCH A GOOD JOB!"

Nat's voice yells back, threatening to break..there is a hint of a sob in it but you're too blinded by rage to care.

"WELL I'LL JUST LEAVE FOR GOOD THEN SINCE YOU'RE MAKING NO EFFORTS TO TELL ME YOU FUCKING WANT ME!!"
Nat hurtles out of yours bedroom, dragging her suitcase behind her. You can see messy unfolded clothes spilling through the half closed zipper, a T-shirt falling through as she crosses the kitchen.

"MAYBE I DON'T FUCKING WANT YOU NAT CAN YOU GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEAD?!!?"

Natasha stops in front of you, anger radiating out of her and almost subconsciously, you flinch back. She sees this and tries to ignore it but it hurts her. A little.

"AT LEAST JANET DOES HOW ABOUT I JUST CRASH AT HER PLACE?!"

"I thought you already did, when you fucked her last week."

Nat starts and stares at you, confusion evident in her eyes. "Wha- I didn't-"

"Oh cut the crap I saw the pictures."

"THEY'RE NOT WHAT YOU THINK! DON'T FUCKING ASSUME WHAT YOU WILL WITHOUT LISTENING TO ME!"

"I DON'T FUCKING NEED TO LISTEN!! YOU DON'T COME HOME TILL ITS LATE, YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING SLEEP IN THE SAME BED AS ME ANYMORE!!! WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK?!?!"

"Oh you know WHAT?!" Nat walks right last you, yanking open the door. "I don't need this fuckery. I don't need YOU in my life. GP DO WHAT THE FUCK YOU WILL BECAUSE WE'RE FUCKING DONE!!"

Thus yelling, Nat exited your apartment and slammed the door behind her. The half-broken door bounced weakly against the doorframe, swinging open again sadly.

You wait a second, two seconds, before your minds registers. She's gone.

Nat. The love of your life. She's left you.

You feel yourself choking as you crumble to the floor, collapsing in on yourself like wet tissue paper. You're hands are cold and clammy, everything suddenly appearing far dimmer, darker, without her.

You barely hear the soft rolling of wheels and gentle footsteps as Nat reappears in the door. Her heart breaks as she sees you lying there, staring blankly into space.

Warm arms surround you suddenly and you hear a soft 'I'm sorry' being whispered to you.
Hot wet tears roll down your face as you notice Nat's sweet scent and her hair, falling in a curtain around your face, shielding you from the world.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry my baby I'm so sorry.."
"I'm sorry too, I didnt mean it I want you Nat. I need you, I'm sorry.."

You both wrap yourselves around each other, soaking in the love and warmth of your embrace.
"I thought... I thought if I let you believe the rumours, I thought it would be easy..to push you away.. To leave..."
"Why.." you gulp to lubricate your dry throat, trying again. "Why did you want to leave..?"

Natasha let out a hollow laugh, gazing into your eyes. "Have you seen yourself, Y/N? Have you seen how, utterly, completely, perfect you are? You're successful, beautiful, gorgeous, adorable... You know exactly what do to, you SAVE lives Y/N.. I've done nothing to deserve you. If anything, its the exact opposite. You're-"

You cut her off with a kiss, a firm angry kiss to her lips. It lasts a long time, till you're both gasping for air.
When you break apart, you rest a hand on her cheek, pulling her closer till your lips are a breath away. "You're. An. Idiot." You whisper to her.

"I know.."
"Stupid."
"I know..."
"I hate you."
Nat chuckles lowly, pressing your foreheads together. "No you don't."

"No I don't.." You agree, smiling a little. "I love you, my silly goose. Don't ever pull something like that again."
"Hey you yelled too," Nat pouts a little.

"I know, I'm sorry...." You say.
Nat pulls you in for another kiss, mumbling against your lips, "I love you too, my Y/N."

"So....you SURE you didnt sleep with Janet?" You narrow your eyes teasingly.
"No, eurgh, she's the last person I'd cheat on you with, I promise."
You giggle and shake your head.

"Wanna go get icecream?" Nat asks hopefully.
"Mhm.. First we need to unpack your suitcase."

"Oh!" Nat laughs a little. "There's only two shirts and a night lamp in that!"