Candy ✔ (In Editing)

-Chapter Forty Four

Hurt.

Hurt is all I felt as I lay in the bed waiting for him to come back. Twenty minutes had passed since I went downstairs to the kitchen, it was becoming more and more evident that he went through and had sex with her.

Tears ran down my face. I chocked on quiet sobs, clutching the covers trying to hide away from my misery to no avail. I clutched the covers tighter trying to hold to the last piece of my heart left but it was futile. I was done for and that only made me cry some more.

He had taken my heart, body and soul. He had taken all I had and now I'm left in emptiness, drowning in my own thoughts.

Why did he do this to me? Am I not good enough for him, that he has to seek for his pleasures elsewhere with his wife is under the same roof? Does he not love me like I thought he did, because I know that people who claim to love you don't cheat on you.

I bit my lip to stop it from quivering when I heard the door open. Tears still ran down my face and my body trembled a bit. He slipped under the covers and sighed heavily.

"Candy, are you up?" He asked as he pulled me closer to him. It was routine and I couldn't help the way my body sank into his arms. It was seeking comfort from the man who broke my heart.

I'm pathetic aren't I? A pathetic lovesick puppy blinded by love like a fool. Thing is I didn't find comfort in his arms, it hurt even worse because his touch burned me. His touch made me feel like everything that I saw was a dream, like it wasn't real. He is a danger to me. A danger to my sanity. A danger to my heart. So danger that my own body betrays me because of him.

"Mmmm." I answered.

"I love you." He said and my body went stiff. A cold chuckle escaped my lips but it sounded pretty normal. Liar, I wanted to say but I opted to say otherwise. It was sad that I actually meant these words, no matter how broken my heart it.

"I love you too." I mumbled.

"I– I'm going to my room. So we don't get caught." I voiced out getting out of the bed.

"But—"

"Good night Justin." I pecked his lips and went out the door.

I dragged myself to my room. It was a miracle how I managed to open the door and close it behind me due to how lightheaded I was feeling. I sank against the door sitting on the cold floor.

That's when I broke down. Ugly tears, endless sobs, horrifying hiccups and my body trembling.

I don't remember how long I sat there crying, I remember my sobs quietening although tears continued to run down my face. My hiccups fading in the room and catching a glimpse of my ring before everything went black.

• • •

I woke up the next morning on the cold floor. My eyes hurt and my body ached all over.

My mind had shut down on me. My body felt like a hollow figure working on autopilot.

I staggered to the bathroom, stripped myself naked and stood under the shower head as water rained on my head. I didn't cry, I had no tears left. My eyes were dry and completely swollen. I doubt make-up could fix anything at this point.

I must have stood under the shower for a long time staring at nothingness as I fell deeper into my mind because the water started getting cold. I switched off the water and wrapped a towel around myself and stood by the foggy mirror. I wiped the mirror with my palm and the sight that I saw was horrific.

I would have gasped in terror but I just laughed. I don't know why but I just laughed like a mad person.

All this pain, hurt, betrayal, disloyalty, dishonesty, lies, heartbreak, runny nose, bleeding eyes, swollen cheeks and more tangled hair than usual. All this suffering in the name of love.