Monty

18: promise

Lucinda

"Montgomery" I say as he turns his head around

He's holding the letters. The letters to my dad I told him not to look at.

"I told you not to fucking look at them" I say snatching the letters off him

"I don't like when you curse" he mutters

"I'll curse if I want to curse-what are you doing here" I say trying to keep calm

"Look Lucy I'm so so sorry-I I just have a lot of shit that i had to deal with the last few days-and please I'm so sorry- i Never should've acted like that" he said rubbing the back of his head

"Just friends ? Montgomery I  loved you... I've never felt this way about anyone and you say we're "just friends"" my voice cracks a little because I'm upset and I haven't drank any water in 19 hours

He sits down and runs his hands through his hair

"Lucy I'm so sorry- I -I'm scared to love you ok-so much shit happened to me in the past I just find it so hard to fucking love and you were perfect...Lucy you are perfect and I'm a fucking disaster"

I sit beside him while staring at all the letters.

"I told you they were private" I mutter

"I know I'm sorry-I just got worried that you got robbed or something- I mean did you...what happened?"

I don't know if he'll believe me if I say I did it.

"I did" I tell him

He looks at me confused then chuckles

"You did this? There's no fucking way"

I shrug my shoulders

"I just get a little angry sometimes, ok"I sigh lying down on my bed staring at my chandelier

He lies back down too so we are both lying on my bed with our feet dangling off the edge of the bed and staring at my chandelier.

"Your dads not dead" he says in a quiet tone

I nod
"I never said he was dead ,I said he was gone"

"Why didn't you tell me"

"Because you don't need to know"

"Yes I do Lucy"

"No you don't....we're just friends"

I tried giving him a taste of his own medicine but I don't like it....

"Please don't do this to me" he says covering his face

"Monty please tell me what's beeen bothering you...you haven't been yourself lately I hate seeing you like this...please" I say sitting up trying not to cry. My voice keeps cracking and my throat feels like the Sahara desert.

"Your voice is so sexy like that"

"Montgomery I'm being serious"

"I don't know how to tell you Lucy I-" he sighs and covers his face with his hands.

"How about this...I'll tell you about my dad and you...you can tell me about what's making you sad"

He shrugs his shoulders and nods.

I put out my pinky
"Promise"

"Promise" he says linking his pinky with mine. "Can you go first..please"

"Ok fine well-"

Flashback:

Tears are running down my face as I repeatedly hit the tree in my back yard with my bat.