Monty

15: Mom

Tw: light mention of SA and eating disorder

Montgomery

"So where should I put it" Lucy asks holding up the small picture frame of us

I shrug my shoulders
"Anywhere you want"

"What about here" she says placing it on my bare coffee table

I smile and nod

She smiles and gets giddy

She runs up to me and hugs me and I hug her back

"Shoot-I have to make dinner for my neighbour do you mind dropping me home"  she says looking at her watch then at me

After I drop Lucy at home and kiss her goodnight I receive a phone call. It's a no caller ID.

I decline it.

When I get home I get a few text messages from Lucinda saying

~Hey finished making dinner🥘🥘gonna have a shower 🚿 😘get home safe🏡don't text and drive😡😡😡I'll be so mad if you do~

~finished from the shower 🌸🌸and dressed going to bed now 🛌night night have a nice sleep❤️❤️and sending goodnight kisses👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨😘👄I love you❤️~

I love how she uses every single emoji there is

I send her a "👍" in reply

When I get home the no caller ID rings me again.

I answer it

"Monty is it you" the voice says

When I hear her voice everything in me drains. Every good thing that has ever happened to me disappears.

Not literally but it feels like it

It feels like my world turned upside down just from hearing her voice.

"M-mom" I say trying not to let my emotions out

"Oh baby-I missed you so much...I'm coming over this weekend I can't wait to see you"

I stay silent.

"Is that ok Mont?"

"Um y-yea sea you there" I say and quickly hang up the phone

This is not good...

I've never told her about how what she had done and what she let happened has affected me.

Ever since I got close to Lucy those thoughts became easier to deal with. Knowing there was a woman in my life that loved me for me and not for my body made it feel like all my trauma never happened.

I look at the picture of us on the table.

It's a picture of her with an arm around my shoulder smiling and I'm smiling too.

My smile could never be as bright as hers. She's always so fucking happy I just wish I could be like that.

She's fucking amazing,fuck. When I see her I get so exited and tingly in my stomach. I literally cannot wait to wake up in the morning and see her beautiful dimpled smile

I think I L word her

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I sit on my couch bouncing my leg up and down nervously waiting for my mother to show up.

I've already planned out what I'm going to say to her and I  hope she understands that she ruined my fucking life and that I never want to see her again