Monty

7:kiss,kiss again

Lucinda

Claude is coming over to my place today. I'm going to teach him how to meditate and be calm instead of smoking weed and other things I'd rather not say....

Crack

"Hey little sis" he said kissing my forehead

"Hey Claudia" I say laughing

He pushes me hard enough to make me fall and chuckles

I quickly get up and kick him the back of his knee making him fall.

I take him into my room.

He looks around like he did the first time I invited him over.

He opens my closet and my drawers and looks under my draw.

He opens the drawer where I keep all my girl stuff like...bras and underwear.

"Hey" I say slapping his hands

"I don't get it-why do girls wear thongs with diamonds on them I mean...doesn't it scratch your ass or-"

"Ok first it's Victoria secret , second no...it just doesn't and why are you so nosy"

"Sorry" he says as if he didn't do anything wrong

I take him over to my quiet corner in my room.

It's just a carpet and candles

"Ok so the first step to being calm is being in a calm place...even if you're on a busy train or if you're somewhere noisy you don't actually have to be there"

"How can I be somewhere if I'm not there" he asks looking soo confused

"In here" I say tapping his head.

"Now sit-sit" I say patting on my meditating rug that's tie dye grey and baby blue

He sits down reluctantly

"Now think of somewhere you want to be anywhere but it has to be calm and safe and happy"

He hums for a few seconds
"Have you thought of something-where are you" I ask curiously

"Mmm im in Dubai...on a yacht...in the middle of the ocean....it's calm and it's cool...and I'm lying down on the yacht"

A smile grows on my face

I wish i can be there too my safe place is literally just my bed in any empty room

My bed is the most comfortable place on earth

"Now pretend all your problems are leaking out of you...nothing else in ether worlds matter except for you lying down on your yacht in the ocean...there's nothing to worry about...everything is calm...everything is quiet...and you are at peace because you're problems don't exist...not in you're safe place"

I look at him and his eyes are still closed. He's very still and isn't moving a muscle.

I turn up so mediating sounds and sit and watch him

"Claude" I whisper

He's still unresponsive...

Did I kill him?

I sit there awkwardly waiting for something to happen.

After a while he opens his eyes and looks at me.

I smile at him but he doesn't say or do anything

I'm alive but am dead

He takes in a deep breath closes his eyes then opens them again