Y/n's pov
Hurricane Agatha has been going on for a few minutes now and so far our power has gone out and we have no way to do anything, "shit, i'm so hungryyyyyyy" i look over to see Jb whining on the couch "ok i'll make some food then" i laugh " thanks Y/n you're the best seriously" he smiles, i go into the pantry and grab some beans and flavoring and i grab a big pot an fill it with water, i start the stove and go to high and put everything in, it's not gonna be enough, the boys eat like animals and the girls are gonna have a bit, maybe if i just don't have any food for now it'll be fine, i want them to eat and be safe and healthy so its settled. after half an hour goes by i turn the stove off and serve the 5 plates for everyone, "here you go, and here you go" i hand everyone their food and i sit down on my phone "aren't you gonna eat Y/n?" Kie questions, "yea, later, i'm not hungry at the moment" i smile "oh my GODDDD Y/n where did you learn how to make this??" Pope screams "my mother, before she passed away we used to cook together. i used to drop the beans accidently and cry, she would always rub my back and say "Y/n, it's ok, don't stress, we have more beans, and everything is fixable, i just wish she was right about that" i smile with slight tears in my eyes, my mother passed away 3 months ago, it's been really hard without her, my dad's a wreck and all he does is drink, we usually drink and smoke weed together.
as a tear falls down my cheek i wipe it away and look up to see everyone staring at me. "ok i'm gonna go somewhere else you all tend to make me feel stupid and awkward for being emotional so, ye" i mumble on and stand up slowly, i walk into JB's room and quietly sob "shit you guys, ok i'll be back" i hear JJ say. i hear footsteps and wipe my tears quickly and sniffle. "hey, you ok?" he asks as he walks in. i fake smile and say "yea of course, how was the food?" "yea it was good you know, you're a great cook Y/n, but are you actually ok?" he asks again, he places his hand on my knee and i look him dead in the eye, "i just want it to be easier, you know?" i sniffle with tears down my cheeks, he pulls me into his chest and i cry "i just want it to end" he rubs my back and kisses my head. "it'll be ok Y/n i promise princess ok?" i look up at him and he wipes my tears "i'm sorry i look like a literal troll when i cry," i laugh " no you don't you look beautiful." he smiles back at me. he leans down and places a small kiss on my lips. "you'll be ok cupcake, don't stress" he kisses my noses and lets me go. as he walks out of the room i sit on the bed in disbelief.
After an hour or so goes by I lay on the bed holding my stomach in pain from hunger. I walk out of the room and go over to the pantry to look for food "eating again Y/n?" Pope asks. Ouch. What the hell pope "no I was just seeing if we have enough food" I fake smile and walk over to the the couch to see everyone there cuddling "hey Y/n come cuddle with me" JJ asks "uh nah it's ok I'm just gonna lay dow non the bed.." I walk over to jb's bed and lay down. Why would Pope say that? Am I rlly that big? I mean, what, why ? "Hey you ok?" JJ asks snapping me out of my thoughts "uh yea i guess, I don't know" "come. Cuddle with me. It'll make you feel better I promise" he smiles. He lays down and pulls me down to lay with him. I hug hug him tightly wanting to cry and he hugs back. "It's ok, it'll all be ok. I promise Princess" he whispers into my ear.
