Heaven's Poems

Jealousy

They say demons live in mirrors

Or is it only I

Well this demon was the only one who never laughed

Every time I cried

There's a lifetime of regret

With every piece of food

Do you think I wouldn't

Throw it up if I could

I killed myself every time

I said I liked to be a ghost

For this is who I am now

When nothing matters anymore

Don't worry about someone

Who doesn't have a heart

Don't save me because I hate myself

Because of who you are

Truth is I can't love

Because of my jealousy

Because there's people who don't have to

Feel guilty about everything they eat

If only I wouldn't be falling into hell

I'd jump off this building and scream as I fell

I'm sorry I couldn't love you

But I don't exist for myself

2/22/21