The Experiment

Nineteen

I looked at Michael and he looked down at me. I was hesitant and looked down "Im sorry about the visiting hour," I said "and everything after," I whispered. "I was stressed and confused and I felt weird from the anesthesia used," I couldn't force myself to look at him.

He observed me carefully.

"I just miss home and it... it was a disappointment when He said that essentially this is my home now," I looked at him.

He touched my cheek gently.

"Please still let me have a chance at the nice room," I whispered. "Ill do anything I just want prepared," I looked at him tears in my eyes.

"You know our deal Izzy. And you broke it," He said.

I took a deep breath. "Im not mentally stable. Its worse then what Im telling them. I have severe anxiety and Im living in fear. Im scared that I'm going to be killed at any time. Im scared to eat food. I dissocate and I dont know how long Ive been doing it for. My moods are up and down. Im not stable," I told him. "Please," I said.

"Are you being honest to me?" He asked.

"Yes," I said to him.

He sighed. "Fine," he sighs. "You get one more change. I want your behavior observed and if you are still not doing well mentally we will move you to the psychiatric wing," He said.

"Thank you," I said.

He nodded and led me to his office.

I sat where he told me. "Will I need to restrain you?" He asked.

"No," I said.

He nodded and sat down across from me.

I was nervous to find the answer to who hurt me.

"Youre scared," he said.

"How could you..."

"That look on your face, the way your heart increases, you tearing at your nails," he said. "Thats what you do in particular when scared," he said. "There's nothing to be scared of my sweet child," he said.

I nodded and looked down.

"Do you have any guesses who hurt you?" I asked.

"My bet is between Jamie and Adam. They were the ones who did my punishment. Im leaning more towards Jamie as he bit me without your approval," I said. "He was also the one who choked me on intake."

"Jamie was the one who did it," he said and opened a laptop and showed me the security footage.

Jamie was in a small room with lots of different drugs. There wad a glass cabinet that said "do not use" Jamie took the key and unlocked the door. He drew out  two different drugs into syringes. Michael changed footage to the kitchen. He switched my meal with someone elses and put the posion in mine and mixed up the pasta.

I looked down tears falling. "Why would he do that," I whispered.

"I dont know," he said. "You are a wonderful subject and I dont want you killed. He will be executed for this," he said. Then He handed me a folder. "These are different options of which ways it can happen," he said.

"I have to choose," I looked at him panic there.

"Yes," he said.

"Can Charlie please help me with this decision. Im 14. I cant decide how someone gets killed," I said.

He hesitated. "Youre actually 15," he said.

"What?" I whispered.

"Your birthday was three days ago," he said.