Chapter Twenty-Three - You Should Come And See Me In Nothing But My Feelings,
I'm lying here in nothing but my feelings,
Thinking 'bout our shadows on the ceiling,
Waiting for you,
So you should probably come through,
If you know what's good for you,
-Little Mix, "Nothing But My Feelings,"
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I stare up at the ceiling blankly, the sun is slowly rising and everything is quiet aside from her light snoring, I trail my fingertip over her side gently, my mind returning to eleven nights ago when the one in this very position was who I wanted, was it selfish of me to keep up this lie? Yes. Did I care? Not in the least.
It's not that I didn't like Betty, I did, she just wasn't for me, I'm not blind I could tell she was in love with me and every time I said 'I love you' back she glowed because she actually believed me,
The only reason I bothered with her was because of Veronica, ironically enough, she's happy I can tell, I haven't seen her this happy since we were children, she's happy because of him as painful as it is to admit it, I could never make her as happy as he does and while that should make angry all it does is reinforced the theory I'd come up some time ago,
I don't deserve love,
Not hers, maybe I'll find someone someday but I know it'd never come close to completing me the way her love does that's the shitty thing about love, once in a blue moon you'll find your 'one' you know the one all those cheesy love songs are written about? The one that comes to sweep you off your feet and is your happily ever after? That's what Ronnie was for me, I'd known it since the moment I saw her, sitting in that puddle, her cheeks tear-stained, her long raven hair sticking to her moistened skin, as she stared up at Valerie with fear, I'd swooped in and retrieved her songbook, chased the bullies away,
