✔︎ dystychiphobia | sunsungki

I feel awkward seeing how I changed

Sunoo woke up at dawn to feel his stomach twisted and head spun hard. He was sweating and couldn't breathe. Sunghoon opened his eyes and saw that Sunoo was trying to get out of bed. He looked at the boy to see he was running to the bathroom, the male quickly rushing to follow him. Sunoo threw up whatever that was inside him as Sunghoon ran back out to wake Ni-Ki up.

Sunghoon rushed in to see Sunoo still not done. "Sunoo ! What's wrong with you ?!" Ni-Ki came in and patted the boy's back. Sunoo whimpered from pain everytime he threw out mostly liquid as he didn't really eat solid foods. The boy's face was pale as his head got even lighter. Tears finally dropped down as he almost fell back but Ni-Ki caught him.

The fact of them caring for the boy wasn't really pleasant and something they wanted to do. Sunghoon took over and carried Sunoo out of the bathroom. Ni-Ki poured water into a cup from upstairs and rushed back down, almost tripping. Sunoo was breathing heavily as pieces of damp hair were stuck to his forehead.

"Sunoo, listen to me. You need to calm down and breathe. Nothing is wrong with you, you'll be fine." Ni-Ki gave Sunghoon the cup of water before making space for him to sit up straight. "Slowly." Sunghoon said desperately. The two were definitely panicking as this was not good. Ni-Ki pulled his hair back and that's when he felt Sunoo's forehead was hot. "Hyung, he's having a fever." 

Sunghoon felt his Sunoo's forehead to only sighed out loud with a hint of voice. If Sunoo's condition gets worse, they would have to get him to the clinic or hospital which is something they would want to avoid. Sunoo gripped on Sunghoon's arm as his throat burned even further. The boy was rarely sick before this despite playing in the rain everytime it did. Sunghoon was really hating this.

As much as he just wanted to push Sunoo's hand off, his heart told him not too and for the first time, he listened to it. Sunghoon got blurry visions of his past, not wanting to remember it, the male quickly passed Sunoo to Ni-Ki as he stood up and ran out of the room, trying to calm down himself and think properly.

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Sunoo was now asleep after 2 whole hours of not being able to calm down. He had a wet towel on his forehead as Sunghoon and Ni-Ki sat on the floor, worn out. They only managed to clean his face but not entirely because they were not sure what to do. "Hyung, I think we need to bring him somewhere safer-" "NO !"

Ni-Ki, for the first time objected Sunghoon's statement. "If we leave him down here, dust and other shit that might be down here will enter his body and we can't afford for something like this to happen again. And you know how troublesome it is for only one of us to stay with him every time. Our work is also important so please, consider it." Sunghoon just looks at Ni-Ki. For the first time the boy was right. "But where exactly ?..."

"Upstairs...in the empty room. I'll clean it so we drag him up there." There was a whole 3 minute silence as Sunghoon was thinking hard. This was not planned well, he thought. "I don't want to care for him, Ni-Ki. I don't know why but my chest just... tightens. It pains me to see him in that condition just now."

"I don't either but do you want to kill him ? Sunghoon thinks again. He's special to you- and me. Sunoo might not remember you, and he will hate you for the things you have done." Sunghoon shedded tears as memories came in a dash. "Fine... but I-I'm not taking care of him. You do it." Sunghoon was scared. No, he was terrified. There was just a memory that made him the way he is now.

"I'll clean upstairs, you... just watch him. Not a big deal, hyung."

Ni-Ki ran upstairs and went to wipe all of the dust and vacuum the room, even placing new covers on the bed that's already there. He took off... all of the memories on the wall and placed them in a box, nudging it somewhere far and hidden under the bed. Sunghoon had a poker face as he clenched his teeth. 

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Sunoo woke up, his vision was blurred and only felt himself being lifted up by someone, and that is Sunghoon. "Sunoo, hear me ?" Sunoo blinked his eyes even more to feel someone shaking his head. The boy nodded but a ring echoed through his hearing. "You are going... upstairs and you're going to be fine. If you stir up trouble, I'll throw you back in the factory."

Sunghoon managed to mumble. "Follow my instructions, is that clear ?" Sunoo, feeling dizzy, nodded. Ni-Ki took Sunoo in and started washing him with warm water in their shower room. The boy flinched and was startled, trying to pull away as for some reason the warm water felt boiling hot. "Relax... It's just a phase. You'll be okay, Sunoo." 

Sunghoon helped dress him up quickly as Sunoo started coughing. Ni-Ki brought up the bowl of porridge that Sunghoon cooked earlier and sat him up. Sunoo felt better but not fully. Ni-Ki fed him the food as he realised that he was eating something different. His eyes quickly shifted at the bowl Ni-Ki was holding. "It's porridge. I think soup might have ruined your throat even more."

Ni-Ki nudged Sunghoon's shoulder as he sighed and grabbed a towel, roughly as Sunoo whimpered quietly. The boy was grateful, very grateful. He finally got to properly wash his hair that grew long. Sunoo finished the meal and mumbled a small thank you as Ni-Ki tucked him in. "Hey, don't sleep yet. I wanna tell you something."

Ni-Ki slightly slapped Sunoo's cheek, making the boy let out a small 'huh'. "The walkie talkie is on this table so just grab it if you need me." Sunoo glanced and nodded before sighing, feeling drowsy. "Rest well, we need you to be healthy again." Sunoo closed his eyes as darkness took over him.

Sunghoon went out and straight into his room, letting Ni-Ki lock Sunoo's door and not even glancing once at the younger male before leaving. Ni-Ki was worried about Sunghoon. Winter is coming and things will turn the wrong way sooner or later. In the middle of the night, Sunghoon couldn't sleep. He kept glancing at his clock as each minute, guilt ate him up.

Crying his eyes out was one of the symptoms of his new side. A precious and hidden one.

i'll continue this because most of you guys want to read it still.
thank you, for reading this.