✔︎ dystychiphobia | sunsungki

i don't relate to you

Sunoo's tears fell down one by one, slowly. There was one in every single room in the house. No wonder Sunghoon trusted him to go around the house. Usually one of them would be around. But questions flooded his mind. When did they start this ? Why ? What was the function of this ?

Sunoo started sobbing as he was scared. His shaky hands gripped onto the key harder and immediately went out, rushing to lock the door once again. The boy pushed back the table that was hiding the door back in its place before running up the stairs, stumbling once in a while due to panic rising in him.

He remembered Sunghoon and Ni-Ki's words, going into the kitchen to take some biscuits and a glass of water. Sunoo took some deep breaths as he went to the living room and place the items on the side table. "Right.. T-the key and t-the note..." Sunoo said in a whisper, tears still streaming down.

He slowly went up the stairs, going into Ni-Ki's room and taking out the box under his bed. When he opened it, there was a stack of polaroids, old letters, a necklace and a few dried and obviously dead flowers. Sunoo pursed his lips into a straight line before tucking the note and the key into one corner.

Not wanting to interrupt Ni-Ki's privacy, he was curious. If Ni-Ki gave him permission to open the box, meaning he wouldn't mind right ? Sunoo took the stack of polaroids and went through them one by one. He was surprised. There was a picture of him and Daniel, multiple goofy pictures of a younger him and so many pictures of him and Sunghoon.

Sunoo smiled slightly. The boy was surely different now. He stacked them up nicely again before placing them back, picking up the notes.

'Sunghoon said he loved me !! I wonder if he'll accept me.'

'Sunghoon told me he liked this one junior, his name was Daniel. Guess I shouldn't confess now. I don't want to ruin our friendship...'

'They're dating. I'm hurt. But as long as I'm close with Sunghoon, I'll be fine.'

'Sunghoon told me he knows my feelings towards him. I'm confused. He told me he likes me too but he says I was too dumb too notice. Daniel was in the class, talking to others. This felt wrong.'

'Sunghoon pays too much attention to Daniel. Sunghoon said he loved me. Why is he still with him.'

'Sunghoon said I should do whatever it takes to make myself happy.'

'I did it. I pushed him- died. Sunghoon doesn't know. No- know- happy.'

Sunoo was shocked. What was the last note saying ? Some parts of the paper were ripped. He quickly went through the box to find the next one. The two pieces of paper looked recent and new.

'Sunghoon hates me. He doesn't love me anymore. He knows what I did. He's keeping me around though. I don't know what to feel about it. I was replaced. I was replaced by Kim Sunoo.'

"R-Replaced- W-what..."

Sunoo was shaky. He read the last note. Afraid of what could be written on it.

'No. This isn't right. This isn't me. Sunoo was his best friend. I'm sorry Daniel... I'll save Sunoo for you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me, Daniel. I'm sorry. I should've died. Not you, you were happy with Sunghoon. You were the only one who could understand Sunghoon. Because Sunghoon is fucked up in the head. I'm sorry for taking him away from you.'

Sunoo's eyes drooped. He re-arranged the notes back in order and placed them in the box, shoving it in the bed. He was confused and mad. Ni-Ki wasn't so innocent after all. He was the same. They were both fucked up in the head. He went to his room, picking up his 'Jungwon' and went downstairs.

He sat on the couch, taking a sip of water while scrolling through the tv channels. He found a random k-drama that was currently on episode 2. Sunoo then saw that it was a marathon so he just went to take more biscuits and a juice box before sitting back down.

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In about episode 5, Sunoo looked at the tv clock to see it was 3 p.m. and they were still not home. He didn't know if he should be happy or anxious. All he knew was that he didn't want to be alone. He was hungry though. The boy then stood up and went to the kitchen, seeing the small paper next to the phone.

'Call me when you're hungry.'

Sunoo picked up the paper and dialed the number, waiting for it to pick up.

/Ah, you called. I thought you weren't hungry/

"I-I am.."

/What were you doing by the way ?/

"Watching t-tv..."

It was impossible that Sunghoon didn't know what he was doing. But then again, the cameras were only connected to that one room. And he was right. Sunghoon didn't know what he was doing. The male trusted him to be in the house alone.

/I see. Now listen to me. There is a bowl of kimchi fried rice in the microwave so just heat it up to 5 minutes okay ?/

Sunoo was hesitant but he wanted today to be a normal comfortable day.

"C-Can I fry an e-egg ?... I-I'll be careful !"

He said in a hurry. Sunghoon was about to say no but Ni-Ki interrupted him, only mumbles could be heard.

/Alright, but be careful. I don't want my baby to get hurt. Stay safe okay ? We'll be home late so just watch the tv and stay in the living room. You can do that right ?/

"Yeap yeap ! T-Thank you !"

/Your welcome sweet cheeks. I'm hanging up now. Call me if you need anything else./

"O-Okay !"

Sunoo placed the phone down and jumped up and down happily. He went to take a pan and almost dropped it to the floor since he had no energy and lost a lot of weight. "Why is this so hard now-" He mumbled angrily. The boy waited for the oil to heat up before slowly cracking an egg into the pan.

It ended up with the yolk half cooked since he heard the microwave go off and wasn't sure if it was properly cooked or not due to the excitement of getting to eat proper meals.

( me everytime i cook an egg ;-; )

Sunoo sat on the couch once again happily sipping on the juice box before eating the meal slowly. He watched up 'till about episode 8 while washing the dishes. It had been a while since he had done this. It felt too nice. Although once in a while he would be scared when since he was alone.

next chap : 5 PM KST 

epilogue : 9 PM KST

didn't want to upload everything at once since i think people would be confused of which chapters to read first :)