sometimes I'm scared of you
and I don't know why
in every other moment
you are anything but scary
you are safety and security and home
but sometimes
when the light flickers the wrong way
or your hand brushes my thighs
sometimes even when everything is fine
when your perfect and I'm happy
you terrify me
and the flip is so instant
so horrifically immediate
one minute I am desperate for you
and the next you scare me so much
that I can't runaway from you fast enough
and god I'm so ashamed
that I still can't distinguish
your hands from his sometimes
that I still flinch
when men walk too close to me
that I still have nightmares
about boys cornering me
that I still grip my pencil
when I'm alone with male teachers
I don't want to be like this
I don't want to be scared of you
but I don't know how not to be
- men scare me
YOU ARE READING
wilting roses
PoetryAnother collection of (bad) poems. *tw: mentions of sexual assault, drug use, drinking, suicidal ideation and self harm* -a collection of poems that document my experiences with my mental health throughout high school. a warning: i had a few undiagn...
