"D-don't touch me."
I close my eyes and harshly inhale for air. Hindi ko sinasadya ang pagtulak sa kamay ni Thana. I just don't like being touched by anyone. It sends shivers in my spine. Nanginginig ang labi't mga kamay ko. Nilalamig ang pakiramdam ko. Even though I'm sitting here in the bench, my knees are shaking.
Shit. I can't help but to remember last night. Fear is what I feel. My chest gasps for air as I clench both my fists. Nahihirapan akong huminga. Something's squeezing my heart into bits.
"Sina, what's happening to you?"
"Sina, okay ka lang ba?"
Rinig na rinig ko ang boses nina Thana and Nasrin pero ibang mukha ang nasa isipan ko. Iba ang naaalala ko. I want to open my eyes but I'm afraid that it might happen again.
I'm seeing a monster, and I'm so afraid.
"Sina!"
A palm lands on my right cheek. Nag-init ang pisngi ko dahil sa sampal na 'yon. It's enough to bring me back to the reality.
Everything suddenly stops in my world. Nang imulat ko ang mga mata, mga mukha nina Thana at Nasrin ang bumungad. Agad kong ibinaba ang tingin. There, I have felt that hot liquids are streaming down on my cheeks. I can even taste the saltiness of my tears.
"Sina . . ."
Inipon ko lahat ng lakas na meron ako tsaka tumayo at naglakad palayo mula sa kanila. I can't face them. Naririnig ko ang pagtawag nila, but I didn't bother to look back.
I'm sorry, Thana and Nasrin.
All I want right now is to hide myself. I don't want to exist anymore.
I'm so disgusting.
BINABASA MO ANG
Sina
General FictionTo protect the one she loves from pain, Sina decides to hide hers. Loving Dash Serran is absolutely beautiful yet having him in life has a dark chapter she does not want him to read. - Langit
