Secrets [Tubboinnit/Tubbo x Tommy]

Sus dreams and Conversations

Do you guys want me to continue this? I'm not as big of a Tubboinnit shipper as I was when I created this as I'm now more of a Tomboo shipper- So what should it be?

~Not proofread~
This chapter includes lime *Like smut but not all the way* just a warning :]

~Tubbo's POV~

We both lay on his bed, having a normal cuddle session, which is completely normal for friends, to do. I shivered, feeling a breeze swarm in from the window which was gaped open. Tommy chuckled before wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me into his chest, providing the warmth that was taken by the wind. It felt right to be in his arms. The warmth it gave me, making the flutters go hyper.

I was pulled from my gaze from a little squeeze from Toms. I applied the same pressure Tommy did, tightening my arms around his torso. He tensed a little, which made me raise an eyebrow. I was about to ask if he's alright but he beat me to it. "I love you, Tubs..like more than a friend. I don't know if it's obvious or not or whether I've been showing it but I have to get it off my chest otherwise I'll practically explo-"

Although he was still speaking, I shut him up by placing my arms around his neck and pulling him lower down so half his body was towering over me, my body laying flatly on the bed and my head against the pillow. I ignored the violent flutters I received and the dark blush that covered my face for once. Smiling sweetly at him, I closed our distance and pressed my slightly cracked lips against his smooth and soft ones.

His breath hitched, making his mouth peak open. I took this as an opportunity and slowly slid my tongue through his lips and lightly resting it on his teeth. I relaxed as he kissed back slowly. I had no clue where the sudden feeling of dominance came from, but I placed a hand on his nape and brushed it through the back of his hair. I tugged at his blonde locks, the action causing the kiss to become more rough.

Our teeth clinked together, my tongue slithering back into my mouth. The slight dominance I had was quickly turned into submission when I felt Tommy's hands slither down to my stomach, just above my jeans. He caressed my lower stomach, a few giggles releasing through the kiss. He took this as a chance and slid his tongue through my mouth and a small way through my teeth. I gasped and my mouth opened more, allowing him to push his tongue all the way through.

My breathing became more rigid as his tongue rubbed against mine. Small groans and moans were all that could be heard throughout the room. His thumb stroked my abdomen before raising it up and hovering lower down to above my jeans which were secured by a button. Tommy maneuvered out of my arms and moved so that he was on top of me with a small space between us without breaking the kiss.

I wrapped my arms around his torso again and rubbed his back up and down. Tommy's free hand came up to my throat and wrapped around it. My breath caught in my chest. He lightly squeezed, blocking my airway for a split second before releasing the grip. I moaned at his hand around my neck, a sign saying for him to continue doing that, and which he did. A light raise formed in my boxers, making me more irritated at the feeling of the cotton pressed against my bulge.

My chest started to hurt from the lack of oxygen. I whimpered before letting out an obnoxious moan when a palm pushed down on my clothed hard-on. My hands scrunched up the back of Tommy's blue hoodie. I took in a gasp of air as the kiss was finally released, my eyes rolling to the back of my head. "Oh my g-god. Fuck yes.." The hand that belonged to Tommy continued to press down on my boner.

His breathing also was erratic, his body lowering over mine. A lump pressed against my left leg, making me mentally smirk through the moans I was making. I lifted my leg, brushing it against his own bulge, pausing Tommy's actions, and making him groan deeply. I opened my eyes to see him staring straight at me. He snickered at the huge blush covering my face and the slight scrunch of my eyebrows due to the pain and discomfort I have down below.

The pain slowly subsided, still lingering as he removed his hand from my throat and brought it to my waist where he moved us so that we were both on our sides. Tommy's hand still held onto my waist as we connected into yet another kiss, except it was filled with nothing but love and care, not the roughness or sexual intentions. His hand rubbed my cheek in a calming manner, making me smile through the lips on mine.

Tommy leaned back so we weren't kissing anymore and I looked at him in confusion.

"Tubs. You need to wake up bud.." He smiled at me sadly. An even heavier look of confusion fell upon my face at his words.

"Wake up kiddo." I was about to scoff at his words, considering we were the same age, before feeling a hand ghost my back when Tommy's were still on my face.

"Toby, wake up!"

I gasped as I sat up, looking around the room which was Tommy's, although when I went to look for him, he wasn't there. "You okay Tubs?" I shot my head to where the voice was, alarming me but when my brown eyes rested on a hazel pair, I relaxed. They raised an eyebrow, waiting for an answer. "Y-yeah I'm fine.." Still shocked from such a dream, I sat up so my back was more straight and leaving a space for her to sit. He smiled at me before raising up from where they were sitting on the ground and up onto the bed next to me.

"I was walking to the bathroom when I heard whimpering coming from in here so I came to look and you were shifting around with a look of discomfort so I wanted to make sure you were okay." Eret spoke with a smooth voice. She had always been there for us when we needed to speak to anyone about things. "Just a nightmare, that's all." I flashed a small smile at him, returning him gaze to my lap. Thankfully not having the uncomfortable bulge in my pants like in the dream.

"You sure bud? You know you can talk to me.." They placed a hand on my shoulder. I sighed. Was I really about to talk to her about this? I gulped before turning my body and looking up and him. "I-.." I went to speak but my throat dried up. "Take your time, we have enough." I nodded at their answer and rolled my ankles. "I-I've been..confused? About a few things and I've only just figured out why for a few of them but there's just one that's been on my mind for a while.."

"Confused about what exactly? Only tell me if you want to though, don't feel pressured." I trusted her enough that she wouldn't tell anyone. "About..my sexuality." Although Eret their selves was apart of the community I still felt anxious to tell him. His mood brightened a little, "What about your sexuality?" "I think I like someone- well, not think- I know I like -possibly even love- someone. But.." I sputtered out the words, avoiding her hazel eyes.

She had a proud look on her face, possibly because they was happy that I trusted them enough to tell him.

"But what? Are you scared, or worried about it?" He took my chin into his hand, and tore my gaze away from the window and into their eyes. "It- it's the same gender, and I don't think he even likes me back.." I couldn't help but tear up at the thought of Tommy finding me disgusting that I want him to be the one that I love for the rest of my life. A sigh brought me out of my depressing thoughts along with a shuffle of a body moving closer to mine. I was pulled into a warm hug, not as comforting as Tommy's but still warm none the less.

"I'm proud of you, Tubbo. So so proud. Thank you for trusting me with this. But if I may ask, who is it?" We pulled away from the hug, tears running down my face and her hands holding mind to stop them from shaking. "Please don't laugh if I tell you.." I looked at them pleadingly. "Of course I won't bud, I would never.." Taking a deep breath, I shut my eyes and gripped his hands tighter.

"It's Tommy.."