The Older Generation

You're the one - Maya

Dear Diary,

I have a confession to make: I love Ray and not Will.  Yes, it's hard to believe but yesterday I had the most wonderful time of my life - and I proved myself who I actually am.

I met up with Will by the blossom tree again.  He brought his guitar with him, just as he said so on our last date.  He promised that he was going to teach me how to play it but we ended up talking all night.  The rest were out, so it was ok for us to stay late there.

"You know, one day... you and me... we'll go and live together in my apartment in Ninjago City.  We'll sing and dance and kiss every night.  I won't need to come here to do so.  Great idea, eh?"

I giggled and he laughed, though he wasn't joking.  That concerned me.  I didn't want to leave all I had worked for, lose home and I didn't want to tell him the truth.

I pulled on a fake smile.

"What about - "

"Kick-boxing?" he tried to guess, "Don't worry, in Ninjago City there are many kick-boxing clubs and we'll go together."

I kept on smiling.  I tried to imagine him doing spinjitzu.  That would be a laugh.  I was smiling so fraudulently that then I started laughing all over again.  Will began to laugh too, so at least I wasn't showing that I was making a fool of myself.

"Hey, let's get inside the kick-boxing arena.  Nobody's around," I told him.

We went inside, but it looked nothing like how I left it a while ago.  The power was out, so we stepped into the darkness and shadows but then we were welcomed by the fire-lit candles surrounding us.  It was really beautiful and romantic.  Even Will seemed impressed.

Will took out his guitar and sang a love song, his tailor-made love song to me.  He asked me those words, those four life changing words, that can make life better or worse: Will you marry me?  But alas, someone shouted from the distance and interrupted our moment.

A spark of fire was moving towards us until we noticed that it was only Ray, holding his hand high with fire.  But he read me a message, a message I had to check if it was actually true.  The words he said inspired me.  I can repeat actions all the time but words speak from the heart and that is where love comes from.  I understood then that I had to tell Will the truth.

He wanted me to be someone I wasn't.  And when the two of them went on one knee, it was my time to speak.

I felt comfortable with Ray and he was my one.  He knew me more than Will.  He accepted me for who I was and am and wanted me to forever be his always.  Like he said once, a relationship should be built on trust and truth.  Ray was truthful to me and I wanted to be too.  I kissed him and he kissed me.  He may not be as cool and handsome as Will, but he's honest, and that is the most important thing.

If only I had realized before.