The Three WolfMates

Chapter 19 - Weak

Nathan POV

It's been a whole week since this feeling all started. Seven days since these emotions began. One hundred and sixty-eight hours since I've been like this. Ten thousand and eighty minutes since I haven't been myself.
Maybe I should stop coming to school and skip every day or continue to drink and sex away my sorrows. Why am I not getting signs? I'm pretty sure my brothers know who their mates are but just haven't told anyone. Like we tell each other everything, why would they hold back this one?
I have been following my dad's advice by monitoring my surroundings when the emotions come crashing down, but for some reason, my mind just goes blank. Should I touch Mya or Tanya while I am passing them, or should I just stay in my current mindless state?
I continued to wait for my brothers by my car in front of this horrible place. I can tell this is going to be a bad day. Finally, they arrive they drive so slowly.
"Took y'all long enough," I said while pushing myself off the car.
"Isn't our fault you drive like a maniac" Here goes Dethan being dramatic.
"Oh please I drive fine"
"Let's just go," says Ethan.
"How y'all feeling, you know, with the whole surroundings thing?" Dethan asked as we walked to our lockers.
"It's giving me hell" I sighed.
"It's not as bad since I'm able to tune it out" Ethan responded while closing his locker
"How?" I questioned but then the bell rings
"Shit, we're late. Let's hurry up," Ethan told us like we hadn't realized that.
"See y'all in English," Dethan voiced before going in the next direction and then up the stairs.
Ethan and I strolled to 1st period which was Alpha Studies. As we got there the teacher was about to start writing notes on the board.
"You both are late...again. Go and take your seats."
We got to our desks and took out our books. It's time for another week of school, I guess.
"Today we are learning 'What Characteristics Make A Great Alpha.' So can anyone tell me some of those characteristics"
"Resilience"
"Ambition and the desire to work hard," Ethan said next to me.
"Confidence"
"Determination" I commented.
"Yes, those all are characteristics of being a good alpha. The main characteristics of an alpha wolf are quiet confidence and quiet self-assurance. You know what you need to do; you know what’s best for your pack. You lead by example and you’re very comfortable with that. You have a calming effect."
He continued class while everyone listened and took notes. Although I'm focused I still have this lingering feeling at the back of my mind and deep down in me. I want it to stop. I need it to stop. It's making me so weak. As I'm getting lost in my thoughts the bell rings for next period. We packed up our bags and went to the next class, which was just down the hall, so we didn't have to hustle.
I walked over to my seat since we have a seat arrangement in this class then just waited until the teacher got here.
What if I touched Mya or Tanya, and none of them were my mate? Will this pain still go on? Will I still be drowning in my own emotions? Will I have to drink and have sex just to turn it all off for a while? I can't continue to do this. Why isn't Adonis giving me a sign or just a little clue?
"Because I'm afraid of how you will react. I need you to figure this one out on your own, and maybe you will come to terms with it." my wolf Adonis said. Adonis has a light brown fur with white undertones and crystal blue eyes.
"It can't be as bad as you're making out to be Adonis"
"We will see in time"
"Hello, Nathan, hello," Dethan whispered in my ear while snapping his fingers in front of my face to knock me out of my trace. When did he get here?
"Yes, what happened?" I asked confused.
"You were just staring into space. Are you okay?" He looked worried.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I assured him just as the teacher walked into class.
Damn, was I so deep in my thoughts that I couldn't hear or see when Dethan came in? Let me just focus on my work right now and deal with this later. I took a deep breath then I took out my things for class to begin taking the notes that were being written.
Without a doubt, the class was over. I packed up my bag and walked out of class to wait for my brothers since we all have English together right now. We continued downstairs to our next class. As we were going through the halls, Mya, Tanya, and another guy were walking right past us. This is my chance, here goes nothing. I passed through the middle of the two, then slightly brushed each one, and nothing happened. There goes my luck and the chance of this never-ending maze.
We got to class just in time before the bell rang. We took our seats around the table with Liam since we had to continue with this group project.
"Okay, class continues with our projects. I will be coming around to check every group. And yes, we are spending many classes on this because it amounts to 50% of your grade, so make it count."
The others resumed the work while I sat back and thought. Why didn't anything happen? I was sure it was one of them; I just knew, so it must be someone else. Now, to think of it, I'm feeling it again: the person must be in this class, but who? Ahh, this is so frustrating omg.
"Hey guys so let me see what y'all have come up with." Dethan showed her the book with the notes he took.
"Nice information. How are y'all gonna present the project to the class?" She asked while looking around at everyone. We all had confused looks on our faces.
"Okay, just think about it and discuss it among yourselves, and let me know." Then she walked away to the next group.
"Maybe we should do a PowerPoint and read from a piece of paper" Liam suggested. Why does he sound so amusing all of a sudden? Pull yourself together Nathan.
"Are y'all good with that?" Dethan asked me and Ethan.
"Yh sure" Ethan responded.
"Yup"
"Okay good it's settled"
The bell rang for lunch, and we all got up and walked outside. As I was walking, I looked back to see if I left anything behind and wasn't paying attention to what or who was in front of me. I ran into someone; then I felt sparks. This must be my mate. I turned around and was met with the most shocking news.
"Mate," Adonis screamed in my head. You got to be kidding me.
"Adonis, stop joking around," I chuckled.
"Mate mate, mate," he continues to scream in my head.
"Oh hell no" I screamed back.

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