Meet Me in Heaven's Stairway

Simula

It was written in the Holy book that each one of us were equal. We have eyes, nose, lips and the body. We are created in His own image equally.

However, what about those who were incomplete? Those who have incompetencies?

But I am truly amazed by how they accepted their fate. Even though they received a lot of critics, still they embraced their flaws and imperfections.

How I wish I am like them.

Life has been tough to me ever since I opened my eyes to the world. I may be having complete body parts, but something within me is unknown.

I want to know what is it. I really want to because it's scaring me as days goes by.

I felt lost. With this shelter and people around me, I still felt so empty and alone.

"Thessa, why are you here?", I heard someone spoke behind me.

I turned to her and I saw my mother wearing her nightgown. She has this confused face on her face upon seeing me in our veranda.

"Nagpapahangin lang po, ma", I said.

I gazed upon the dark sky where the stars line along with the crescent moon. I have always loved darkness. It gave me the warmth of tranquility. Which I needed after having these dilemmas every night.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pakiramdam ko naliligaw ako. Hindi ni isang beses na naramdaman ko ito pero maraming beses na. Paulit-ulit na lang at hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ko nararamdaman ito.

Na para ba'ng hindi ako kompleto. Na may isang bagay o tao, o kahit ano ang nawawala sa akin.

Seventeen years living in this cruel world and it felt like I am barely alive.

I have all the assets, money and everything that everyone's looking for. My parents provided me with the things I wanted and needed.

But I still felt incomplete.

"Go to your room. It's already midnight", My mom said.

"Were you been there for a long time?", I asked out of curiosity. I thought she went back to their room.

She genuinely smiled at me. Kumunot ang noo ko. What if I will ask her?

It took a minute before I got my voice back but my mother bid her good night to me already.

I guess I will figure it out all by myself.

I woke up early this morning. First day of class kasi and I have to be in the school early because of the assembly. I did my morning routine and went downstairs for breakfast.

As I went to my seat, the deafening silence enveloped my ears. I saw my father sitting to his throne like he doesn't care to the people around him. He's always like that, he's out of our reach.

My mom smiled at me and mouthed a soft 'good morning'. I roamed my eyes on the dining table and saw my half sisters holding their utensils.

Half sisters, my ass.

"Kumain ka na, Thessa", My father ordered. I looked at him only to saw him throwing daggers inside his eyes as he looked at me.

Really, what did I do to you?

I wanted to voice it out but the cat got my tongue. I could never talk like a badass bitch towards my father. I know what he's capable of. And I'm scared.

I picked my spoon and fork and put some foods on my plate. I started eating silently, hoping I will finish it anytime soon so I could get out of here.