Taken | billie eilish

27 | want you back

"gianna cmon we're going to the beach," sophie said smacking my ass for me to get out of bed.

i groaned at the thought of daylight. or even anything having to do with me getting out of bed. i just wanna lay here all day.

i lost my best friend and the love of my life 2 weeks ago and i'm still not completely over it. i haven't heard from them since the situation and i feel like such a shitty person sometimes when i think about how it all went down.

sierra and lo have came over a couple times to assure me that they understand i meant no harm but i really hurt kendal and i'm wrong. drew's been juggling being there for billie and i at the same time. she definitely got on my ass for fucking ken which i expected.

sophie's been staying with me for some days because she's worried for my mental health. i haven't been doing that bad in my opinion.. but the depression episodes definitely spike out of nowhere sometimes. she's so sweet to be here for me, i'm so grateful honestly.

"i don't wanna go," i whined.

"i don't remember asking that," sophie grabbed my ankles and pulled me out of bed and i fell straight to the floor. "up. now."

i rolled my eyes and slowly got up. i checked my phone. it was 2pm... oh.

"why are we going to the lake? i know it's march but it was literally freezing yesterday," i complained to sophie.

"okay 60 degrees is not freezing," she laughed. "and it's louisiana, the weather is bipolar and it's literally warm and pretty out right now. i refuse to let you stay in all day," she said.

i threw on my bikini, packed food and we left in my car. the beach was an hour away so i drove while sophie slept majority of the ride. i was getting a call from drew so i answered it.

me: hi honey

drew: *laughs* hey how are you?

me: better, sophie and i are headed to the beach now.

drew: oh that's so good! i'm so glad she's there to cheer you up g. but um does she know-

me: nope nope and i'm gonna keep it that way. i'm keeping all feelings to myself, i'm not telling nobody shit. fuck that

drew: she might catch on sooner or later *laughs* i can't wait for that day.

me: um considering everything that happened, i can *chuckles* but i'll talk to you later

drew: okay bye love you, have fun.

me: love you too drew

"aye bitch wake up," i said smacking sophie's thigh. "we're here."

we walked down on the sand and found a spot where we could lay a blanket and make a picnic. we chilled for awhile then we finally decided to go in the water. we literally had such a fun time, i'm so glad we came.

after awhile, we were kind of worn out so we sat back on our blanket, eating fruit.

"besides sleeping in all the damn time, you seem to be doing much better than before," sophie said, plopping grapes into her mouth.

"yea it's kinda surprising to me but i think i just had to realize that i fucked up and i probably won't get them back so there's no point in sitting around because time doesn't stop," i explained.

"preach," she chuckled. "the show must definitely go on," she added.

"i really appreciate you for being here, you're the best," i hugged her, making us fall over.