I no longer believe that life is not worth living. I am still not scared to die but I have so much to live for, a breathtaking wife, a happy home and healthy animals. I spent so much time waiting around for the future and rushing through life waiting for it to get better. Well I'm here now and I wouldn't want to miss a single minute of it.
I am an adult now, the craziest part about turning 22 this year is never thinking I'd reach this point at all. While most people my age spent highschool planning a future and figuring out who they are I never put much thought into it, why plan for a future I didn't believe in? I think about my future often now, who I am and who I want to be, I feel like I'm a few steps behind but then I remind myself I spent so long barely surviving and now I can make a life worth living. There are so many things I wish I could tell the me I used to be. And so many things I can't wait to share with future me. I've realized now, what I'm worth and even though some days are still hard, and there are days I still feel like I'm drowning, somewhere along the way I learned how to swim.
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Poetry**EDIT** so, I started this when I was 15 and haven't touched it since I was 17 I think it would be interesting now, almost 5 years later to come back to it and add some things. Just some stuff I need to allow myself to say. A lot about life. A lot...
