This Side of Paradise: HxH Royal UA

Stupid pillows VI.

I found myself awake a few hours after I had fallen asleep, confused as to why it was still dark out and not morning.

 I stretched out my arms and legs, and sat up to look around the dark room as my eyes adjusted. I had went straight to sleep in my clothes, not bothering to change. Sighing, I layed back down into the soft matress, closing my eyes, I went over evrything that had happened in the last few hours. I called that controlling what we can when things get out of control, Reilegh taught me that.

So far, I woke up, ate breakfast, had my usual lesson or two taught by Reilegh, and that's when he announced that Gon would be shadowing him for training purposes. Then we went down stairs and was introduced to the boy, went for a tour, got "lost", found that finger in the hallway, ran away from the finger in the hallway, and found the other room at the end of the corridor.

Thats when I paused, and sat straight up  in my bed, the blankets all untucked from thrashing around in the little sleep I had gotten. My hand reached for my pocket, the soft thing brushed against me, good, it was still there. I still wondered what it was, but I could figure that out in the morning.

Still sitting up, I closed my eyes, and looked through a window near my bed, and then it hit me like a bag of bricks.

"Oh shit," I whispered into the pale light spilling into the room like cream in coffee. I dropped the thing I was still holding.

I just went outside.

For the first time.

Like ever.

What.

How could I have been so stupid? I should have looked around and focused on where this secret balcony was located, so I could go back, I should have been pin pionting the location instead of trying to touch the moon and all that jazz.

I groaned, and cover my face with my eyes, I could have died right then and there. My one chance of having an escape route gone. 

I am not going to have a tantrum. I am not going to have a tantrum. I am not going to-

"ARGHAGHAGHAGHAGHAGHAGHAGHAH!" I yelled, as I threw my pillow arcoss my dark room.

Spoiler, I had a temper tantrum.

I grabbed and pulled at my hair, I was such an idiot. HOW COULD I HAVE POSSIBLY LET THIS CHANCE AT FREEDOM SLIP SO CARELESSLY AWAY?

I let out another yell of frustration and let go of my white hair, a good size clump came out in each hand. I dropped my fists and clenched my jaw, I was so tired and angry at myself I didn't know what to do with it all.

I threw myself back down to the matress, now pillowless, and closed my eyes. To be honest, I had never really thought of escaping until this very moment, mostly becuase it had seemed so impossible. But even if I could escape, I wouldn't do it. I knew I wouldn't and perhaps thats why I was so angry. I couldn't just leave Alluka like that, she would be kept on high watch 24/7 if she ever heard I ran away. They might kill her if I leave, besides, im one of the only reasons shes still alive. They will not hurt her as long as im in this palace, I wont let them.

speaking of Alluka, I wonder how shes doing, the first few hours of high watch are always horrible for her anyways. Shes just so misunderstood, I wish people would see Alluka and think of a girl who is kind and loves her big brother more than anything in the whole world. It made me sick to see her name spat out by Reilegh or any of my family.

"Oh Alluka, ill find ourselves a world, just us, I promise," I said softly, I usually calmed down when Alluka crossed my mind.

I remebered when Alluka was a little younger, she would always tell me that one day, we could go outside and go play in the grass with the other kids. She would always talk about how much she wanted to go play princesses and hide and seek with an endless amount of space.

I pulled back the silken sheets and slid my bare feet into a pair of fluffy slippers, walking to pick up the pillow I had thrown earlier in my fit of rage.

And what about Gon and Reilegh? What would happen to them if I was gone? With no one to take care of and no one to mentor, they could both be sent home, or worse but entirly possible, executed. I shuddered, surely they wouldn't kill them for something like that? Right?

Ugh why did this have to be so difficult? All I wanted was to leave this prison behind, I wanted to see the world and explore, not sit and rot waiting for some girl to sweep me off my feet and marry me for the title of being a Zolydck. [A/N my boy Killua really needs to meet Eren Jeager TATAKAE]

Well, there wasn't much to do about it now besides sit here in the dark pondering my life decisions, so I closed my eyes, sighing and relaxing into the tossled pillow.

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THe next morning I woke up to bright brown eyes staring into my soul. 

"ACK-WHO...? WHAT-" I screamed, pushing whatever was on top of me away from my face, "BACK, BACK I SAY!"

I rubbed the sleep from my eyes as my eyes started to focus. I looked at the thing as I sat up, well, the "thing" was actually just Gon.

You guessed it, Gon was lying on top of me, attempting to wake me up. My ears went pink and my mind went fuzzy.

"RAGHAGHAGHAGHAGH WHAT WAS THAT FOR?" I have-said half-screamed at Gon, who was now sitting at the edge of my bed rubbing his head.

"I was trying to wake you up, but instead you shoved me into this bed post here."

"Couldn't you have just tapped me?"

"I tried that, thirteen times, so I decided to stare at you until you woke up, my Aunt Mito taught me to do that to people who don't wake up easily, they think somethings wrong outside them while the person is still dreaming, so their heart rate speeds up until they eventually wake up!"

I have to give it to him, I was a pretty hard sleeper. Once, Reilegh had to get my older brother Milluki to scream in my ear to wake me up.

"What time is it anyway? How's your head from last night? You were out cold, i'm suprised youre awake right now," I asked, pointing at him.

"I was? I don't remember that, I just remember running and then tripping, thats it, my heads ok though," Gon reached for his head again, searching for a bump or something I don't know.

"Oh! That reminds me! You have a tea party arranged at 3:00 pm today with King Tethven and Princess Rin of the Chimera Empire, Reilegh told me you should get ready and come down to breakfast soon to discuss the matters of the visit. Reilegh told me to tell you," Gon said with a concentrating look on his face trying to remember all the information.

"THIS EVENING? WAIT- NOOO OH COME ON REILEGH," I groaned as my head tilted back in  annoyance, Reilegh knew how my I hated the Chimera Empires royal family, especially Princess Rin.

"Oh well, hurry, get ready and meet us all in the dining room," Gon said, getting up from the bed and walking to the door.

I frowned, I was in for a loooooooooooooong day.