This Side of Paradise: HxH Royal UA

You disgust me X.

A day past.

A week.

Two weeks.

Still, no Alluka, I was terribly worried for her. She was all I could really think about during lessons or just anything really. The only person that could make me feel the slightest bit better, was Gon.

Whenever he saw me spacing out, or start biting my nails, he would stop me. Gon was like a light in a dark and empty room, like Alluka. I felt as if I could tell him anything, even if we had only met a little more than a month ago.

I was in the middle of one of Reileghs lectures, they were always so boring ninety-percent of the time I didn't listen anyway. I wonder if Gon ever payed much attention to them, afterall, he sat a spare desk beside me. Reilegh thought it would be good for Gon to learn this kind of stuff too.

"Killua? Hellllllllllllllllo? Anyone home?" I returned to my senses, Gon was waving a hand in front of my face, trying to get my attention.

"Oh, sorry, what?" I asked, looking around. Reilegh was up at the chalkboard, looking at me with one hand on his hip, clearly annoyed.

"I asked, What year did the double hommicide of Dutchess Relga Zoldyck and and Duke Nano Zoldyck occur?" Reilegh tapped his foot.

Oops, I should have been paying attention I guess, he usually never asked questions during his lectures."Oh um, 1189 I think," I racked my brain of any knowledge on the subject, those names sounded vaugely familiar.

"Incorrect, 1242, please try to pay more attention Young Master, you would have known the answer if you had heard me ask Gon the same question before you." Reilegh turned back to the chalkboard.

I was a little suprised I didn't hear Gon answering that question, but oh well.

I turned to look at Gon, who smiled at me, and he turned back to listen to Reilegh again. My stomach fluttered, that seemed to happen a lot now when he smiled or complimented me, but I pushed it aside, it was probably nothing.

I looked back at Reilegh, at least pretending to pay attention, but every now and then, I snuck a glace at Gon.

I told myself: he was just nice to look at.

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I was walking to the dining room for dinner later that day, Gon was training with Reilegh somewhere I think.

I opened the double doors and crossed through the busy kitchens, it smelled like lamb and green pea soup, one of my least favorite things this castle had to offer. I thought about skipping dinner tonight, just to save myself from being scolded by my Mother for playing around with my food rather than eating it, but I decided I would go anyway, for dessert of course.

I had a huge sweet tooth.

I zig zagged my way through the cooks and pushed into the dining room, my Mother, Kalluto, and my father were already seating, staring ahead in silence. I took my usual seat next to Kalluto.

"So Killua, did you pay attention to your studies today? Reilegh has told me that you've had some attention issuse recently, is this true?" Mother interrogated sternly.

"So what if it is, everythings just so boring," I layed my head down on the table, shielding myself from my parents.

"Does this have anything to do with your brother Alluka, Killua?" My Father asked abruptly. I felt a chill run down my spine, how many time did I have to tell everyone,

Alluka is my sister.

Sister.

Girl.

Why couldn't they understand she was a person too? Not just some play thing to be tossed around and used for profit. 

"Don't you dare mention her, don't any of you." I whispered, I clenched my teeth.

I heard the dining room door open, and I looked up to watch as Illumi took his respective seat at the table.

"What's wrong? Have I walked in on some private conversation?" Illumi asked, looking at my Mother, and then my Father.

"Nothing of the sort, Killua has just had some trouble focusing in Reilegh's lectures recently."

Illumi looked over to me.

"Is this about Alluka-?"

I didn't answer, I only stared straight ahead, not daring to look at anyone.

"Killua, i'm talking to you, look, Alluka's fine, he's just in confinement at the moment, there is no need to worry, besides, by the way things are looking you have to worry any longer, in fact no one will," Illumi chuckled.

Illumi laughed, actually laughed at the thought of Alluka being murdered.

I couldn't control the next words flying out of my mouth.

"WHY CAN'T YOU ALL TREAT ALLUKA LIKE A PART OF THIS FAMILY? HUH? IT'S NOT THAT HARD TO SHOW SOME SIMPLE RESPECT? ALL SHE HAS EVER WANTED WAS TO BE LOVED BY YOU GUYS AND NOW YOU JOKE AROUND ABOUT KILLING HER? YOU MAKE ME SICK!" I shouted, standing up, not bothering to push in my chair as I walked out of the room fuming.

I started running, running to the library, to the last place I saw Alluka before she was taken away from me.

I swung open the door, walked over to my favorite chair, and sat in it, curled up in a tight ball. Before I knew it, I started crying.

"Oh Alluka...i'm so sorry, i'm so sorry" I sobbed into my knees. One of the only people in my life I loved was being taken away from me, and I was overrun by fear, sadness, and worry.

I heard a thump.

I whipped my head up, who was in here?

"Who is it? Why are you here, just leave me alone!" I shouted.

A brown leather boot, followed by another came out from behind a shelf.

Gon was there, watching me. I noticed he wasn't wearing his guard uniform, but the outfit he arrived in, but this time, with a black sort of belt that had pouches attacted.

"I'm sorry, I was looking for a book, i'll leave now, again, my apologies," Gon bowed, and turned tward the door, he was acting strangley formal.

"Why aren't you in uniform?" I sniffled, wiping my nose with my sleeve.

"Well...can I tell you a secret?" Gon walked back to me.

"I don't see why not." I said, Gon crouched down beside my chair, and made direct eye contact with my watery eyes.

"I'm sneaking out of the castle tonight."

"WHAT?!?" I had alomost forgotten about my sadness a minute before. What he was saying was impossible, the only way in or out was the main entrance or by breaking a window.

"Shhhhh," He put a finger to his lips.

"But how?" I lowered my voice.

"The balcony, you know, the one we found," he said, standing up once more.

Ohhhhh, that made sense...but wait, how was he going to get up or out? There was a lot of distance between the ground and the ledge.

"That's crazy! The ground is way too far away!" I exclaimed, jumping out of my seat, now, overcome by concern more than curiosity or meloncholy.

"I know a way," Gon said in a determined tone, "I know how to get out and in."

"But how? What you're saying is unthinkable! Do you hear yourself talking right now?!"

"Want to come with me?" The words flew quickly from him, Gon stared at me.

I paused, and considered. What was there to loose? More than likey we wouldn't make it mast the moat, but what the hell, why not.

And then I remembered Alluka.

"I want to go with you big brother! Out there! Just you and me!" A five year old Alluka had giggled.

"I'll go." 

For Alluka.

And my decsion was final.