This Side of Paradise: HxH Royal UA

Dinner With the Zoldycks

It was a small kiss, nothing crazy, but it was enough to make me startled enough to push myself away. I felt my eyes widen as what had just happened started to set in, I covered my mouth, going beet red all over.

"Gon! Why did you...?" 

Gon opened his eyes and they went as large as saucers, cheeks tinging pink.

"Oh my god, i'm so sorry, I don't know what got into me, i'm so sorry, I should have asked, but I just really wanted to kiss you and-" I cut his racing words off.

"Gon."

"Yes Killua?"

"Did you... just kiss me-?"

"Yes, and i'm so sorry I did and I will never do it again and-"

"Did you like it?"

"Excuse me?"

"Did you- fuck it" I pulled his cheek in and kissed him again. (LANGUAGE KILLUA 😨)

This time, lingering for a moment, his lips on mine.

But yet again, I pulled away first, my confidence I had just had shattered before my eyes, I fell back onto the bad, covering my buring face with my hands.

"Hell yes I liked it," I heard Gon whisper, I felt him lay down beside me, "Did you?"

Did I like it? Of course I did, hell, I wanted to do it again, but something was wrong about the whole thing. Gon was my best friend, not to mention we were both boys, how would my family react if I told them I had fallen for a village boy? No one could ever find out about it, or who knows what would happen to Gon, no,who knows what would happen to me? No one ever heard of such a thing of liking someone of the same gender, but I don't think people wouldn't take the news well.

My heart was pounding in my chest, my stomach was filled with butterflies, my head was clouding with doubt and feelings that I never knew existed before and...

 everything was moving so fast... too fast.

"Gon...no one can know about this, you know that right?" 

I saw guilt cloud his once smiling face, "Yeah... I knew that from the moment I kissed you first,"

I sighed, "Look, Gon, I hope you realize this is only going to complicate things from now on."

"..."

"How about we just pretend this never happened okay? We can just go back to being normal best friends and forget this whole thing, nobody will know and everything will be fine," I panicked.

I watched Gon's expression darken, but it passed a second later.

"Yeah! yep, that works for me, never a again, not a problem, I gotcha!"

I sighed, it was so obviously fake, I could  tell Gon was really upset.

"I didn't say that to make you upset, but-"

"ITS ALL FINE! I'm great, it was my fault and it will never happen again, in fact I am just gonna head on out right now see you later! BYE!" Gon jumped up and quickly walked over to the door, and ran out before I could say anything else. I slapped my hands over my eyes, why did this all have to happen?

Sighing again, I got up to leave, no point in moping around in the dark now anyway. I jumped off the bed, smoothing out the wrinkles Gon and I had left on the blankets, and made sure to close the door shut, not wanting to ever visit again.

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Dinner wasn't usually super conversational in the Zoldyck household, but tonight for some reason, Killua's Mother would not shut up.

"So i've been thinking," she squealed, "And I think the theme for the ball this wear should be masquarade! Think of how amazing it would all be, oh how elegant everyone would look! What do you think, Silva?"

"I think that's a wonderful idea, Dear." Father replied, not even bothering to show any exitement or even look up from his plate. This made me chuckle a bit, my Father and I didn't have much in common, but the thing we shared the most was the intolerence for my Mother.

I kept my eyes down as well during the entire meal, though I could feel Gon's eyes on me from beside me, watching, wondering if i'd show any sign of... well... of anything I suppose.

"Right?! Oh but there is still so much to be done, the invitations, the tableclothes, the guest list, the music, oh I must get right to planning as soon as possible! That reminds me... how are the dancing lessons going, Lady Hisoka?"

Oh boy, i'm in for it now, I thought tensing my shoulders up, I looked up staring at Lady Hisoka, her eyes staring a look that probably said "you and your friend are hopeless" while smiling he fake, plastered smile.

"Certainly... improving, " Her lips curled at the last word, she looked like she had just eaten a lemon.

"Very well! After all, the ball is only a month away, and we need to get you in tiptop shape for your bride!"

I choked up on the last word, not this again.

"Mother, i've told you! I don't want to marry her!" I exclaimed, discusted.

"Killua, we've been over this, do it for the kingdom, do it for me, for all of us!"

"No Mother! I won't, and I never will."

"Well who, then, do you want to marry? Because I can assure you that there is no one as pretty or smart that even compares to-"

"I DONT WANT TO MARRY, OKAY? I don't want to marry a girl, I simply won't do it!" I raised my voice, interrupting.

My Mother looked puzzled for a minute.

"What do you mean you "don't want to marry a girl"? Because if youre implying whatever I think you are I can assure you that I will never allow such a disgraceful thing to happen."

I stared at my Mother in horror, processing my own words, it took everything in me not to look at Gon and ask him what to say.

"NO! No! No- Mother, why would I even suggest such a thing! What I meant was that I don't want to get married okay? Nothing like that..." I panicked, trying not to sound too frantic.

"Well you are going to marry someone whether I have to force you too or not, I don't care."

"But Moth-"

"Enough! We are done talking about this, end of story." My Mother angrily picked up her spoon and agressivly shoved a spoonful of soup in her mouth, fuming.

Good thing, I was sick of the conversation too.

"Killua?"

I paused, my life flashed before my eyes.

"Yes Father?" I asked quickly.

"See my in my study after supper, I have things I wish to discuss."

"Yes father," I looked down in complete horror, it was never good when my Father need to speak to anyone in his study, let alone by myself. I couldn't take it any longer, I snuck a peek at Gon, whose eyes were open wide in fear,

This could certainly not be good.