The Cullen Karaoke

Why try?

"Stop it Edward! I'm leaving. I can't handle this. I'm not a normal creature. I feed off living things energy, and surprisingly vampires energy as well!" I shoved Edward in the shoulder sending him flying into the back of the couch.

For the last week I've been trying to leave the Cullen home, but they keep stopping me. I just need to be alone, and ponder over my new change, and try to discover the new me. See 'try' is the key word here...

"Bella. Please stay with us. We'll help you discover yourself. It can't be too difficult." Esme begged. The entire family was standing in the living room trying to keep me here.

I growled, and released my medium sized transparent wings from my skin tight shirt. I'm still trying to get used to this whole new, wings, feed off energy, and flying thing. I stalked toward Esme and saw her jump behind Carlisle.

"Oh chill, will ya? I'm not gonna hurt you. Just trying to control my emotions right now!" I ground out. This is so hard, every move I make is scares the family away, they can't manage be within one meter of me. I frowned, and my eyes began to water.

"Hon, don't cry. We're not scared of you. We'll help you. Just let us in." Carlisle tried to sooth.

"Not scared of me? Not scared of me!? You can't even be within one meter of me, and you're terrified every time I release my wings! I'll cry if I want too. I'll leave if I want too. Stop trying to stop my every move. I know you're all going to just leave me in the dust, once we figure out what the heck I am!" I was panting heavily, tears coursing down my porcelain cheeks.

"Edward is going to leave me again like he did on my eighteenth birthday, like all of you did. And that hurt more than anything in the word! Jasper isn't going to be able to stand my emotions like he was finally starting to handle them, but not now. Rosalie, just has a mask on, hiding her hate for me, and is just ready to strike when I make a wrong move. You... you and Esme are just trying to act like you really care about me. I've fallen into a shallow trap, and it just seems to just be swallowing me now. The more moves I take, the faster the sand timer runs out, and then you'll all up and leave me."

I crossed my arms over my chest and huffed indignantly. Can't they understand anything, that I have/am gone/going through? Of course not, they're all caught up in their own musings, they could care less.

"Why do you bother trying, when you know you're not gonna get far. Just leave me alone!" I saw hurt and pain flash through Esme and Carlisle's topaz eyes, and I felt slightly guilty for what I said, but not enough to take it back. They needed to hear how I felt.

I felt wetness on my cheek, and noticed my tears spilled over. I dabbled at them with my finger tips. Pink. My tears are pink. Just how normal of creature I am.

"Why? Why do you waste your time on me? Why try?" With that said I stepped out onto the deck stretched my wings, and took off. My wings caught the light of the sun, and a rainbow reflected from them. Only if I was in a better mood this would go perfectly with it. Why even try?