The Cullen Karaoke

BELLA POV

It's been about two weeks since the family and I sat down to my home videos. I've searched high and low for any way I could contact Jamaleen. I miss her. She was my first best friend, and my sister by everything but blood. I'm still slightly depressed, I don't really remember why, but I am. I still have flashbacks of Charlie, but I'm usually on my own when I have them. I don't need pity from others if they so happen to see my unfocused eyes, and hyperventilating moments.

It's still difficult to understand how I can be a guardian angel, that was changed by a vampire, and be rock hard, but still have the ability to breath, and drink and eat, and I'm still my clumsy self. I feel down the stairs the days ago, and to my amazement my left knee was fractured, and sprung my letter wrist, but in just a slot second my bones were mended, and not a thing hurt. This amazed the family, but I think mainly me.

Dove is still with us. We've all been calling her Dove so much, we pretty much forgot what her giving name was. To our great disappointed, she chopped her beautiful auburn/brown hair off. She told us she wanted to go out on the town her own for a little bit, and came across a hair saloon. She's complained about her hip length hair getting caught in anything and everything, so she took a chance, and chopped it all off to just below her shoulder blades, and she now has side bangs. She brought home the ponytail she cut off as well. Pretty impressive.

I've spent most of my time in my room lately, singing and writing in my diary. Carlisle had been working more late night shifts, and he's to be more depressed, each time I say his given name other then 'dad'. Esme had been the same, but I just can't seem to bring myself to call them 'mom' and 'dad' anymore. Not since Rosalie chewed me out before my great cliff dive. And it still hurts. That's not something you can easily forget.

Speaking of Rosalil, she's been clingy to me lately, I don't know why, but I guess she's finally learned the world doesn't revolve around her, and she been trying to get me to see that I really matter to this family.

Jasper, his usual emotional self because of us, had been clingy to me as well. We've been getting to know each other better as well. Turns out we have a handful in common. He's my rock when needed most.

Alice. Still the same, dragging me everywhere she can for new clothes. Did the best sister. Hyper, and easily lovable.

Emmett. Good heavens that massive bear sized vampire. He it's still intimidating when he feels like it, and still a great cuddle pillow. I usually steal him from Rosalie when I need, and we just lay on the living room floor, him on his back, and me on my stomach on his stomach. We'll talk about anything and everything together.

And then there's, Edward. He's still mine, and I've been clingy to him lately as well, but if I can't cling to him I'll take Emmett.

I still look back onto my past, and wonder, 'how the hell was I so lucky, to find such an amazing family like this one? And especially vampires?' When I have flash backs, I learned to try and think of the family, and it pulls me out of them.

I still can't see how I went from, Isabella Marie swan, the dull, abused, lifeless girl with no hope whatsoever in her life, too, Isabella Marie Cullen, the guardian angel, with more hope, life, and love than anything!

I walked down the stairs, to the living room, and sat down at the grand piano. I smiled brightly and began running my fingers lightly over the keys.

"Now that he's back in the atmosphere with drops of Jupiter in his hair
He acts like summer and walks like rain. Remind me that there's a time to change aye aye aye aye
Since his return of his stay on the moon
She listens like spring and talks June aye aye aye aye
Aye hey hey aye
Tell me! Did you sail across the sun?
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded?
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me! Did you fall from a shooting star
One without a permanent scar?
And did you miss while looking for yourself out there?"

Singing was a breath of fresh air to me. It helped me in the hardest times, and make the best decisions possible. Living to me, was like a living hell. Torture, pain, helplessness, nothing or no one you could turn too...

I never knew what a family was until I met the Cullen's, they're the best thing to has ever happened to me. A home full of seven vampires, and two guardian angels. Now that's a mix. But I couldn't have asked for a better.

I turned in my seat after I finished my song, and saw the family sitting on the couch and floor watching me. I smiled, and walked over to Carlisle and Esme, and plopped myself in between them.

I hugged mom around the waist, and whispered, "I love you... mom." I heard an unneeded take of breath, and her eyes were filled with tears, yet she was smiling. I smiled back, and moved over to Carlisle.

I wrapped my arms around Carlisle's neck, and sat, in his lap, like I used to... I took a deep breath and whispered, "I love you... daddy." Another unneeded take of breath was heard, and I was bombarded with hugs and kisses.

There is nothing better than having a family such as this one.

And this; was my Cullen Karaoke life...