I was on the verge of tears, and I couldn't help it so I left, walking down the streets crying. Audelia came running towards me and tried to stop me. "Audelia, I'm happy for you both. I really am, but there's this ache in my chest that I can't bear any longer," I said while crying. "I'm sorry I-"
"No, you shouldn't," I said, interrupting her and looking at her. "You should be happy that he chose you Audelia," crying in tears. I sighed, smiled and said, "Now, I'm glad to see two of my best friends live happily."
I walked across the street with Audelia still following me. I hear her calling my name, telling me that she was sorry. I suddenly hear the engine slowing down, as well as the sound of tires attempting to stop on the wet concrete. The car's brakes had failed.
It felt like the time slowed down. I turned around and saw Audelia crying, and I felt terrible. I didn't want her to feel sorry for herself; I wanted her to live happily ever after. But I felt deceived and terrified that I'd lose them both, that they'd never be friends with me again. I pushed her away, and smiled, "Live happily for me okay?" I paused briefly, "I'm sorry and thank you for being my friend." And the car hit me.
All I could think about when I pushed her was, she had a reason to live, and I don't. The sounds of sirens and the beeping was the only thing I could remember back then.
"Doc, we're losing her," said a girl.
"Get the cardiac defibrillator ready," the doctor said.
"Okay. One... Two..."
Then the heart beat sensor went off.
Honestly, there were a lot of things I regretted, that I wished I had done. For many years, I read books to escape reality. I was scared that I was different, that nobody would ever be friends with me. Until I met Lucius Wynn and Audelia Adler, I finally believed that things would change eventually. That I could live a life that I always dreamed of...
I guess it went on for a little while, but some things never lasted and other things you wished for, never happened.
So, maybe next time. I will live a life with no regrets...
...someday, in another life.
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Half A Heart
Romance"it seemed so perfect, but ended so soon." - unknown Sylvie Huxley, a bookworm who prefers to stay inside and read, made new friends in her hometown of Loxely. She falls in love with her best friend, who has had a huge impact on her life. Will she...
