I hate those moments in which I remember
Those memories that seem
To have burned a mark on my mind
They make me feel as though
I can never be comfortable in my skin
That I need to scrub till my skin bleeds
Trying to get their touch off of me
I hate remembering
Things i'll never forget
The sound of my head against the wall
How loud his voice was
How scared and sad my screaming was
The restless nights after
The immense feeling of guilt
How when I remember
I feel all of these things again
How when I am doing so well
They just materialize in my mind
And make me trip
And fall back down again
