These things in my head
They get in the way
They're always
Screaming
Shouting
They always tell me
The worst things
They make me
Agitated
Upset
Angry
Sad
Suicidal
I wish they would just go away
I've tried medication
I've tried church
I've tried mediums
I've tried death
I've tried ignoring them
Nothing works
Meds made it worse
Church made me lose faith
I lived through death
And ignoring them
Helped them gain control
But
I need to stay strong
For you
For them
I need to be there for them
I need to stay happy
I can't let them know
I can't let them worry
I can't
Cant
I
Cant
I can't
I can't let them worry
I can't let them know
I need to stay happy
I need to be there for them
For them
For you
I need to stay strong
Even if it means
Staying in this war.
