F1 One Shots

#96 Mick - Documentary

MADDIE POV.: 7 years after Michael's fatal accident, Corinna decided to make a documentary on his name, true to the person Mick's dad was and still is.
Today, Netflix crew are filming it and I'm keeping Schumacher's company, even though I'm not part of the movie. 
Ever since the morning, Mick is anxious and feels uneasy, which breakes my heart. To feel slightly better, he keeps me close to himself all the time, and I don't mind it at all. I want to support all three of them as best as I can...
Mostly Corinna and Jean Todt are speaking, as they know Michael the best, but Gina, Mick, Sebastian and Mika Hakkinen have their moments too. It's really hard for me to see tears in Corinna, Gina and Mick's eyes, rememebering the times that are long gone now...
-Micky...- I whispered and turned around in his arms to look at him -Talk to me... How are you feeling?- I wasn't hiding my concern.
-I'm fine... It's just...- his voice cracked -It's hard...- his voice wasn't louder than a whisper.
-I know Liebe... I know...- I sighed deeply and hugged him close, by wrapping my arms around his neck -Everything will be alright, ok? You don't need to say anything you don't want to... And you'll talk as long as you want, nobody will presure you into anything!- I assured him with small smile.
-Danke Liebling... It means a lot...- he replied and kissed my temple.
-Mick.. Your turn- Gina came to us, brushing her cheeks dry from tears.
-Ok- her brother agreed and looked back at me. He didn't need to say anything, I just knew... I kissed him shortly, but sweet and gave his hand a last squezze.
-You got this- I whispered to him, and then Mick took a short walk to the armchair, where Gina previously sat, and did the same. My gaze on the other hand, never left him, with light smile still lingering on my lips.
-He's lucky to have you...- Gina was first to brake the silence, which descended upon us, watching her "baby brother" fighting his own demons, just like she did just seconds ago.
-Why you think that?- I asked her -I'm deffinitely more lucky to have him..- I disagreed.
-No matter what he's been through, all the problems and obsticles... And you still stand strong beside him.. Most people would give up right at the start, in 2013..
-And I'm not like most people- I smiled at her.
-Definitely not- she agreed with tearfull smile and embraced me in tight hug -Danke für alles (Thank you for everything...)
-Es ist nichts Gin...(It's nothing)- I replied, returning the gesture. 
But our moment was short lived, as we heard the pain in Mick's voice:
-".... Dann naturlich ist es so, dass nach dem Unfall diese Erfahrungen, diese, ich glaube, Momente, die viele mit ihren Eltern erleben, nicht da sind. Oder weniger da sind. Das, finde ich, ist... ein bisschen unfair. Ich glaube, dass Papa und ich uns in einer anderen Weise verstehen wurden jetzt. Einfach, weil wir in einer ahnlichen Sprache sprechen, diese Motorsport-Sprache. Und dass wir viel mehr auch zu bequatschen hatten. Und da, finde ich, ist mein Kopf am meisten oder die meiste Zeit. Wo einfach ich mir denke... das ware so cool. Wo ich mir denke, das war's jetzt. Das ware eingentlich... Ich wurde alles aufgeben, nur fur das.... Ja..." (Then of course it is the case that after the accident these experiences, these, I think, moments that many experience with their parents are not there. Or there are fewer. I think that's... a little unfair. I think dad and I would understand each other in a different way now. Simply because we speak a similar language, this motorsport language. And that we had a lot more to talk about. And that's where I find my head is most or most of the time. Where just I think to myself... that would be so cool. I think that's it for now. That would actually be... I would give up everything just for that... Yes...) - when we heard that, both me and Gina got tears in our eyes, instantly pulling back. Not long after that, I saw that all those thoughts in his head, which he verbalised by that few lines are crushing him... I knew right away, that it's too much pain for him... It was evident in his voice and on his face, right from the eyes, shining blue with tears.
Without second throught, I went straight to him, ignoring the Netflix crew, with opened arms. Mick stood up from the armchair and clung to me, with tears in his eyes.
-It's alright Mickey... It's fine..- I whispered and kissed his cheek, while I started to masage his scalp on the nape of his neck with one of my hands. Mick didn't reply anything, he just hid his face in my hair and neck.
-It's fine Liebe...- I assured him again, brushing his stiff back slowly.
-It just hurts...- he blubered into my shoulder, not moving.
-I know Mickey, I know...- I sighed and added -Let's have a break, ok? You'll drink some water and rest...- I suggested softly, not moving yet.
-Yhm..- he hummed in responce, so I took his hand in mine, to pull him to the kitchen, where we met Corinna, drinking coffee.
-Oh Liebe! What happened?- she immiditely spotted his teary gaze.
-It's nothing Mum- Mick disagreed and I passed him a glass of water, which he drank quickly.
-It's just emocional... To all of you...- I replied, giving her sad look, while brushing Mick's back gently.
-Meine Liebe...- she sighed and pulled Mick in a hug. That gesture made me smile.
Then we talked calmly, about everything and nothing, only not about the movie. After Mick let go of his mother, he hugged me again, without saying anything. But I know him long enough, that my presence is giving him comfort and safety. I just wanted him to feel at ease and not hurt so much...

Later on, Corinna returned to the filming crew, and we stayed back, in the kitchen. Mick sat down on one of the chairs and I stood in front of him.
-You ok?- I asked him softly, my gaze not leaving his.
-Yes. Don't worry about it Maddie- he replied and forced a small smile on his lips.
-You know, I know you long enough to know better than that, right?- I chuckled and wrapped my arms around his neck.
-Right- It was Mick's turn to chuckle, and I giggled at that -Thank you for being here... For all of us... For me...- he said solenly, with soft and small, but true smile.
-You don't need to thank me. I'll always be with you, and help you out...- I promised and leaned in, to press quick kiss on his lips. But before I pulled back, Mick placed his hands on my hips and held me in place, returning the kiss.
At that moment I could feel how his pulse slowered, going back to normal...
-I don't deserve you...- he breathed out, locking our gazes again.
-Don't say that! We more than deserve one another!- I replied and kissed him again.
-You're the most special person I ever met...
-And you're one on a milion meine Liebe- I said and kissed his lips softly once again -Come on. We need to get back to Gina and your Mum...- we smiled to one another, and then Mick stood up, and wrapped me in tight hug before we left the room.
-Ich liebe dich...
-Ich liebe dich auch, Mick...- I whispered back, tightening the hug. In responce, Mick kissed my temple lovingly.
Then we got back to the living room, to support Gina and mostly Corinna. Mrs Schumacher is hella strong, handling the situation lika a queen... I'm honored to be able to witness it up close, and know this woman that well, like I do. Mostly because Mick and I were best friends ever since kindergarden, living just across the street from one another. I wouldn't imagine my life any other way...
For the rest of the day, Mick was hugging me from behind, as he placed his chin on one of my shoulders and I held his hands in mine.  We all knew that this movie will honor Michael the way, that no other could, as it will show him the way he actually was.. Loving father and husband, marvellous person and the best driver in Formula One. Even through it's hard since the accident, he's proving that he's a fighter, and fights every day for better tomorrow for himself. I'm glad that I can witness it and be beside Mick when he needs me to, just like I was today, or am almost every race weekend in F1. We all know that Michael would be extriemly proud of him... Of him as a driver, and as a young man he became... And I'm the proudest girlfriend ever! It's hard, but I think that nothing happens without reason... Let's hope that all the pain would be revarded one day, in the future...
THE END

Something more about Michael...
The documentary I watched few months ago gave me this idea...
I hope you like it...
Have a nice day! / Goodnight!

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