F1 One Shots

#86 Lewis - Forever

It was written during the 2021 season
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ANGELINA POV.: Right now it's a middle of the week, before the Silverstone race. We're already in England, to prepare everything, to be on top. Bulls might be strong, but new format of the race is our advantage... Nobody knows what will happen...
But still there is something that botheres me... As I had some meetings, I couldn't accompany Lewis to Paris a while ago, and he went there alone. Cuz of it, paparazzi had good situation to photograph him alone, which isn't possible lately, as we go everywhere together. But it's not the photos I'm concerned about... It's the headlines in the magazines and articles... "Lewis alone in Paris? Did Angelina Walker left our champion?", "Lewis Hamilton on his own in Paris, where is Angelina?", "Lewis Hamilton without his long term girlfriend in Paris. Trouble in paradise?" and etc...
And the comments under the re-posts on social media are the worst... "Good she left him! Finally Lew can be with someone who is perfect for him!", "Finally! She never deserved him!", "Poor Lew! She never truthly loved him!", "Nikki was better fit for him! I knew that they won't last!", and many, many more like that...
It really hurts... I know that I shouldn't focus on them, but it's still not funny... I was never a gold digger, and I'll never be one, as I love Lewis unconditionally, but those people will never understand that...
Right now, I'm doing, very likely, a one of the biggest mistakes, as I read all those articles and comments I can find in the internet. Every single line in them, or a word, is like new knife pushed into my heart or a stomach and twisted in them, but I braced myself to read them all. In all that hate, I can find from time to time, positive and suportive comments, like "it's all bullshit! They don't need to be together 24/7 to still love each other!", "Angie and Lewis are a match from heaven, nothing can seperate them!", "Lew and Nikki never worked out, because their diferences. Our Champ and Angelina are like 2 sides of a coin!" and etc. Those are making me smile through the tears, but are not only ones...
Of course, I knew that we'll face some hate after we went public, but I never thought that it will be that big! As a person with fame, and an athlete, I know that my lifestyle is on constant watch, whoever I date, how I look, what I eat, with whom I'm friends and enemies with, but... But seeing such a massive hate to my person because I fell in love with Lewis was never in my mind...!
I have no idea for how long I'm sitting on our couch, with Roscoe beside me, with iPad in hand, but before I knew it, Lewis is back from his morning run.
-Angel, I'm back!- he shouted through the hallway, and just his calm and gentle voice made all my "walls" crumble, and I started to cry uncontrollably, unable to say anything back to him. Instead, Roscoe went to greet his dad, and I heard how they are playing. Soft and gentle "Hey buddy! I'm back! Where is mummy?" made me cry even harder. But luckly for me, instead of searching for me, Lewis decided that, he'll shower first. That gave me time to read some more hurtfull and full of hate comments, which suddenly started to appear under my photos on all social media, those with or about Lewis the most...
I cried so hard, that I haven't heard when Lew left the bathroom, in all new set of clothes. Socks, large sweats and t-shirt.
-Angie, did you see my ho..- he stared, as he entered the living room, but stopped dead in his tracks, as his eyes landed on me. There I was, currled in a ball on the couch, under soft white blanket, and in his hoodie, the one he was probably searching for, with messy bun on my head, eyes red and puffy from tears, those watery stains on my cheeks also, with a little what was left from my light make up- no make up, and iPad in hand.
-Angel...- he breathed out and ran to me in no time, to fall on his knees in front of me, sound muffled by fluffy carpet -What happened? Why are you crying?!- I could easly hear the saddness and fear in his voice, as well as see it on his face, with frantic gaze. But I was crying SO HARD, that I couldn't muster any words in particular. Seeing this, Lewis wanted to grab my hands in his, so in order to do so, he took the iPad away from my hands, still switched on, with hurtfull and shady comments plastered all over the screen. Lew brefly looked through them, and realisation hit him. I saw that in his eyes...
My boyfriend placed the device on the coffiee table and turned to me again, as he sat beside me on the couch.
-It's all about those comments?- he asked gently and wrapped his arm around my shakeing shoulders. I only could nod, unable to say anything -Ay, Angel! You shouldn't think about them! You're the most gorgeous and talented woman I ever met! All those people are just jealous of your succes and who you are as a person, when they're nobody special themselfs!- he said calmly, and pulled me onto his lap, to wrap me in thight hug.
-But what if they're right?! That I'm not that special?! That we shouldn't be together?! That you should find yourself someone who will be awailble 24/7 to go around the world with you, to support you no matter what you are doing? What if...- I rambled, looking onto my hands instead of him.
-No, no! Angel! Stop right there!- he interupted me, and lifted my chin gently, to lock our gazes -All of that what you just said is bullshit! I don't want anybody else! I want you, and only you my love! Since the moment I met you, I knew that you're someone special. Someone I need in my life to feel complieted...- the more he said, the more I started to calm down. It's something in his calm and gentle manner, paired with its deepness and uniqeness, that is putting me at ease ever since I got to know him...
-Really?- my voice cracked, but tears were no longer floating on my cheeks.
-Yeah. I'm not leaving you. Ever!- he promised, and I knew that he'll do EVERYTHING he can to fullfill this promise...
-I love you...
-I love you too Princess. You and only you!- he said with that smile I adore and kissed my lips softly -You're the only one for me Love. Never doubt that...
-I won't!- I promised him and kissed him again. That was when I knew that we'll be fine... Whatever faith and luck will throw at us...
THE END

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Have a nice day! / Goodnight!
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