BTS V Oneshots 《COMPILATION》✓

how to love

two cold and insecure hearts stuck in an arranged marriage

My heart feels warm the moment I reach the front door of my house. A little smile draws on my lips without me trying. It's just a thought of seeing her figure makes me feel ease. All the stress and struggles I faced today are long forgotten. Maybe this is what they always said about the feelings of being home, my home.

As soon as I unlocked the door, I was welcomed with nothing. No, I don't even expect her to greet me because I know her and that's not her.

"I'm home." despite my excitement, my voice came out cold like usual, hiding every emotion that I have for her.

"I'm in the kitchen." there goes my beloved wife, well she doesn't know it yet.

I walked to the kitchen only to saw her preparing the dinner. There's nothing special but she's there, and that's enough for me to call it special.

"Welcome home and go clean up, the food is almost ready." She said and look up to glance at me for few seconds before turn back on her cook. My heart beats faster at the short eye contact, yeah that's how hard I'm whipped for her but again, she doesn't know it yet.

Humming shortly, I left to our shared bedroom and do as she say.

We're stuck in this situation because of a special condition. A special condition from both of our family's business. It's clinched. An arranged marriage that would benefit both families. Only business, there's no love or any other feelings involved.

That's what they thought or maybe that's what she thought.

She never knew that I was in love with her, hell I'm deeply in love with her. I've never love anyone else these years, have been her and always gonna be her.

Sadly, she doesn't know it yet.

Why?

Because she thought I'm that cold arranged husband that have no feeling, no emotion and no love for her.

Wrong.

I'm just apparently very good at acting. Maybe I could try my luck as an actor?

I'm the one who initiate the marriage. I lowkey suggested the idea without my parent know about my real intention.

"Taehyung, the food is ready." she called out for me and I almost shouted back with all affection I have but I need to hold it all back.

Why? Because I didn't want to scare her away.

I was scared if she knows about my real feelings, she would leave me. She once told me in one of our dates before the marriage.

"I don't believe in love, so let's keep our relationship for business purpose only." that's why. In order to keep her close, I would hide this feeling.

The dinner went quieter than usual. Yes I didn't talk a lot but she's not a cold one. She would ask few questions about work and stuff, just to keep the air light but tonight she's so silent. Too silent that I got worried. I couldn't stop worrying throughout the dinner and I can't even enjoy her cook.

"Taehyung, are you free after dinner? I have something to talk to you." She asked out of the blue and I hummed, too nervous to form a proper answer.

She might think I always give her cold shoulder, the fact is, I'm just nervous. She always makes me feel this way. Only her.

After dinner, both of us settled in the living room sitting across to each other. I tried to find any hint from her face but it's hard to tell.

"So, what is it?" my voice came out colder than usual. Damn Taehyung, just because you were born in Winter doesn't mean you have to sound cold all the time.

"First, I'm sorry for taking your time." no you're not. "And I don't know if you notice but tomorrow is our first anniversary." oh, you remember. "Which also mean, the end of our marriage contract." oh.

Her eyes finally look up to mine. "I just want to let you know that it's okay if you want a divorce. I know you weren't happy with this arranged marriage, so your job ends here. I wouldn't bother you anymore." for the first time, she smiles at me. Did she wanted to divorce this bad?

"Well... that's all I want to talk about and since you didn't have anything to say, I assumed that you agreed with what I said. Then, we'll process the paper tomorrow, I guess. Good night?" She stood up and turn around, probably so done with my cold attitude.

This is your last chance Taehyung, do you want this? Can you let her go?

Without thinking straight like how I used to, without worrying about what she would think of me, without any thoughts, I pull her wrist softly back to me which makes her landed perfectly on my lap. She was surprised at my sudden action.

"T-Taehyung?"

"I was too surprised to react but what if I said I don't want a divorce? What if I said, I can't let you go because I love you so much and I can't live without you? Would you still want a divorce with me?" I must be sound so desperate that she got so confused at my sudden changes. "I love you. I've loved you since the beginning. I'm the one who want this marriage first. I-I've been crushing on you since high school but you never pay attention to me. I'm sorry that I keep this from you but I don't know what to do anymore. All this time, I can't show you my affection and feelings because I was scared that you would leave me. You never let me love you, love. You don't believe in love but I want to love you more than love.

You said you don't believe in love, then can you let me teach you how to love?"

your answer will be.... ?