BTS V Oneshots 《COMPILATION》✓

Sorry

The last stop of TRB concert in Hongkong was ended. I was resting in my hotel room, tired physically and mentally. Suddenly Jimin get in and sadly come to me. "Borrow me your phone." I look at him confused, but handing him my phone.

He took it and type something on it, then he return it to me. "She posted an audio in soundcloud. I think it's for you. Namjoon freak out once he notice this. They didn't know that you've broke up with her, Tae. They will freak out if they know." He said and I become speechless. I take back my phone and plug in my earphone.

Jimin pat my shoulder slowly and leave the room. I stare at the phone, a song called "Sorry" from her. I become hesitated if I should listen to it or not. I click play, and close my eyes.

Her guitar strings give nerves, and her voice makes me trembling. Oh, how much I miss her.

(Play Juniel's Sorry from here)

"Lately, you said that you’re leaving me
Maybe, it’s really over
I’ll understand, I’ll understand
Even if my heart aches
My love, if your heart desires

Lately, I’ve just been crying
I try denying it but I guess I’m struggling
Don’t worry, don’t worry
With words I don’t even mean
My love, I’m deceiving myself

Your “sorry” hurts
Don’t say that
I don’t like your “sorry”
Because it feels like the last time
Because I still love you
Because it’s not over for me

Lately, you seemed sad for some reason
So I stayed up all night, worrying about you
Because I’m a fool, who couldn’t catch on
I loved you by myself
My love, without even knowing how to leave

Your “sorry” hurts
Don’t say that
I don’t like your “sorry”
Because it feels like the last time
Because I still love you
Because it’s not over for me

I wish this would be like foam, like a dream
But your heart has grown cold
I know I can’t turn it back
But I can’t, please come back
Can you hear my heart? Can you see my heart?

That one word, your “sorry”
It tears up my heart
Your “sorry” that has turned around
I call out to you but you don’t reply
Your last word to me
Was it just “sorry”?"

I let my phone drop from my hand as ny tears flow from my eyes. I know, I'm a guy, and crying after broke up is so pathetic but I can't, I love her too much, that it's hurt to know her suffering like this.

Everything started from months ago. I was in Thailand for TRB. The concert was about to start in 30 minutes, I called her, I usually called her before concert to makes me relax, to hear her cheer for me. But that day, she didn't pick up the call.

I called her for more than 10 times, but she didn't pick it up. I got so upset.

After we come back to Seoul, I started ignore her texts and calls. She tried to explain to me about why she didn't pick up the call, but I don't want to hear.

After ignored her for a week, she come to our dorm and ask me to talk. I was still so upset and disappointed, so we fought hard that night.

"You never understand me, Tae. Why did you changed?" She asked with tears flow down from her cheeks. Usually I will be soften when I saw her cry, but I was too mad that day.

"What? I've changed? Aren't you the one who changed? Since you started working, you never be there for me anymore. You didn't pick up my calls! You said, I've changed??"

"Taehyung! It's just a small case, why are you so mad about it? I told you I was busy and having meeting that time. I tried to call you back later but you ignore me UNTIL NOW!"

"SMALL CASE?? I KNOW YOU WERE FLIRTING WITH THAT GUY IN YOUR OFFICE! I was fine at first, I thought it was just A FRIEND! But not until you ignored my calls!!!"

"So.... I was like that in your eyes, huh? I was that low in your eyes? Even I'm your girlfriend and you still believe the rumour? Taehyung, why you never try to see something from my position? Do you know how hard is to be a girlfriend of BTS Kim Taehyung? No! You never know. Because you're too childish! You're jealous over something that don't exist!"

"So, it's so hard to be my girlfriend? Fine, I'm sorry. You can stop being my girlfriend from now on. I'm leaving you now. Free your self. If I makes you suffer all this time, SORRY." With that word I leave our dorm and slammed the door.

And now I regreted everything. Since that day, I tried hard to keep smiling in front of the camera, and it's really hard. Pass a day without her is hard. But go back to her is also hard when I know being my girlfriend is hard for her. I don't want her to suffering more.

So, maybe this is the best for us. I'm sorry.

Theme Song: Juniel's Sorry -