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A List of things we should have been-Angst

This notebook is many things. A final goodbye to my girlfriend, a way of starting to move on, a diary of sorts. Most importantly though, it's a list of all the things we should have been. All the things we should have been able to do, all the things that should've happened, all the things that wont happen now. That can't happen. Some of them I might go on to do alone, to honor what we should've been, but some of them will forever remain just wishes. This is a list of both of those things- the thing's we should have done.

1. We should have gone to the movies together
You always wanted to go see Star Wars together, just the two of us, in that stereotypical rom-com date. I would have bought us large slushies and you would pay for the popcorn. We would each buy tickets, and then exchange them at the doors. We would have both reached for popcorn at the same time, and our hands would touch. We would then hold hands for a while before you reached out to steal my slushy. I would have let you take a sip, and we'd share straws for the rest of the movie. As the credits played, we would have kissed, and I'd have drove you home to our apartment, falling asleep straight away, you hogging the blankets.

2. I should have taught you how to cook
I remember that time you tried to cook pancakes and almost burned the house down. I remember picking out a piece of ash from it, and you saying they were meant to have blueberries in them. We planned to have lessons the weekend after, but they got delayed by the air conditioning breaking. We should have done it earlier, then I'd at least be able to remove one thing from this list.

3. We should have graduated, only one year apart
It's funny, because we actually met at college. I was a homesick freshman and you were a year above me, yet 2 years older. We saw each other for the first time in dorms, and 2 weeks later we were dating. Never once, in these two years we've been together have I regretted that choice. You should have graduated in three months, and I would've graduated the year after. You would be a successful Business major with a bright future ahead of you.

4. We should have taken in a cat
You always wanted a cat, and although I'm more of a dog person myself, you were allergic so a cat was the next best thing. It would have been a black rescue cat with amber eyes, but green was our second choice. We would have named them Pickle, and had a mock-collar design created and everything for when we lived in a place that allowed pets. 

5. We should have gotten engaged
I've played this pretend scene in my head so many times, it probably would be exactly how it went. You would come home from work late, and I'd be then waiting by the door. I'd take your coat and hang it on the hook, spinning you around in the process. By the time you turned back around I would be down on one knee, a ring box in my hands. If you said yes- and I hope you would- we would lean into a kiss, collapsing onto the couch, which would hopefully be newer than the moldy one I have right now.

6. You should have opened an antique shop
It was always your dream to open an antique shop in old age once you retired, and I would have been there with you. You had a name picked out and everything- although you refused to tell me until I guessed- which I wish I put more effort into. You loved collecting old relics, and this would have given you an excuse to. We probably wouldn't get many customers, but that would be okay- it would just give you more time with your favorite stuff.

7. We should have gone to Disney World
When I found out you'd never been to Disney I knew I had to take you. We had tickets booked and everything for the perfect lovers getaway next break. We would have stayed up to watch the fireworks and I'd take you on the Tower of Terror, sitting next to each other so we could hold hands as we dropped.

8. We should have taken that art class
Drawing was never either of our strong suits- I know that very well about us. You'd decided you wanted us to paint portraits of each other to hang up- and I said we could whenever we had the money and time to spare. I wish I'd just gone along with it then- that would be one more memory to hold on to. One more piece of evidence of our love- of your life.

9. We should have grown old together
With all these plans for our future, there's no arguing that we were sure this relationship would last a lifetime. We would move to another city and live out our days there- being buried in the same cemetery next to each other, only a few years apart. Now you're gone- and all of that is gone. All those hopes and dreams of a future we'll never have out the window.

I want to add more- to say how we wanted to have a vacation house in rural Maine. How we had already picked out our dream apartment. How we made joke 'just married' cards to prank our friends. But I was told to keep this eulogy short- there are others who want to talk. Plus- 9 was always your favorite number. So, that being said- may we meet again in the after. Goodbye Cara. I will always love you.

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This took me a while to write, but I'm pretty proud of it. It's not obviously Puffychu, but I had Niki and Puffy in mind when writing it. It also includes some of my personal headcannons- such as Puffy wanting an antiques shop.

Posts should stay weekly for the next little while now that I've gotten back into the flow of writing- so stay tuned for that!