𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃

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Sage POV
Few weeks later...

"So where do you think you two stand?" The therapist asked, looking at me and Mekai.
"In my head, I don't think we should be together." I shook my head.
"Have you communicated that to him? Or is that just what you think?"
"It's just what I think." I nodded.
"And what about you?" She asked him.
"I wanna be with her. Like this my highschool sweetheart right here and I can't just let her go." He shook his head.

"But Mekai you don't understand why I don't wanna be with you! You don't see how you treat me? You cheated on me like 6 times and like a dummy I took you back because I love you! Nobody should have to go through the shit we go through!" I snapped and he rolled his eyes.
"This whole relationship sounds toxic and mentally draining to me, so here's what you need to work on individually." Dr. Lively said crossing her legs.

"Mekai, you need to rebuild the trust between you two. 6 times? No wonder she doesn't trust you. You have to come to an agreement with yourself that if you genuinely love this woman that you're ready to settle down and be a family man. Sage, I think you need to work on your self confidence and communication. A relationship will never work if you guys don't talk. I understand the whole paternity situation is stressful but as a couple you guys have to talk and get through it." She paused and I nodded.

"You all have a very long history and you're trying to hold onto that old flame you had when you were 17. Personally, I think you two need a restart. A break. At least a month away from each other and nothing on a sexual level. The only conversations you should have should be about your children, because you two confuse each other. Mekai you told me that you never know where you guys stand and Sage you told me that you don't see a future. Obviously you guys are on different pages and it won't work."

"Have a private moment with no kids or anything sexual, and just talk. Say whatever comes to mind and don't be afraid to say what you feel. Don't avoid it because you'll be in the same place you are now." She said and we both nodded.

I decided me and Mekai needed couples counseling because of all the shit we've been through. A week ago, he got mad cause I was texting Armon about the dna situation and he broke my phone and then left for the next few days.
We walked back out to our cars and as soon as I got in, he got in my passenger seat.

"Um look," He sighed and I rolled my eyes.
"Fuck is you rolling your eyes for?" He scrunched up his face.
"Cause it's about to be the same bullshit apology. I'm sorry, I let my anger get the best of me, I love you and ima do better, I wanna be with you and I'm genuinely sorry. Few days later you're doing the same shit." I scoffed and rested my head on my fist.

"Sage this the shit she was just talking about. You so quick to get an attitude and say that I don't mean my apologies but I do." He sighed and I crossed my arms.
"Mekai you don't mean it! Every time you apologize you do the same thing over and over again! I'm fucking tired! I want a solid relationship! I want a nigga I can show off without bitches texting me and saying that you was just in they bed! That's embarrassing Mekai!" I snapped and he just got out the car, slamming the door. I locked my doors and shut my eyes. A tear slipped down my face and a lump grew in my throat.

I hated that I loved him. He's always hurting me and he knows it, but he never changes anything or takes responsibility. It's been like this for almost 7 years and I tired of all of it. I deserve a solid relationship and I want it to go further than an engagement ring. My kids don't deserve that either. They see their mom crying over their dad, but he just acts like nothing happens. I got myself together and saw he was already gone. I laughed and wiped my eyes before pulling off.

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I checked off MJs homework and handed him the paper back.
"Mommy were you crying earlier?" He asked and I sighed.
"Nah bud, I just got some soap in my eyes. I'm okay." I kissed his forehead.
"I don't know.." he trailed off.
"Was it because of my dad?" He added.
"It's almost 9, go brush your teeth and I'll be up there in a minute, okay?" I dismissed what he said and he went upstairs. I sighed and scrolled through my phone, looking through my Instagram of all these people posting family photo shoots.

I wanted that. The connection we have now is nowhere near the connection we had when we were 18. We were young and excited just because we were in love, but now I'm just so used to running back to him it doesn't excite me anymore.
I want the old us back.

I shook off my thoughts and went upstairs. I said goodnight to everyone and by the time I went back in my room, the twins were wide awake.
"Hey princess! Hi goofy!" I smiled and picked them up.
I kissed their foreheads and laid them on the bed.
I grabbed 2 diapers and the wipes to change them. If you tell a 17 year old that she's gonna have 6 kids before she's 22, she would probably just go ahead and kill herself. I probably should've, but besides the point.

I finished changing them and laid them in the middle of the bed. As soon as I laid down my phone dinged.

Mekai.

I love you, and please believe me when I say I'm sorry Sage.
I need you to believe me bro.

I love you too.
Read 10:21 pm.