I don't wanna be SAD FOREVER
Even though GROWING PAINS still keeping me at the night
I was DANCING WITH THE DEVIL
But I'm still ALIVE
And I'm so grateful, I'll keep on PRAYING for the rest of the time
I MET HIM LAST NIGHT, he stayed in grave now
While I stay in CHELSEA HOTEL NO 2, thank god!
I'm not his proud BROOKLYN BABY anymore
Will never be his GROUPIE LOVE no more
Because he was the ULTRAVIOLENCE for me
I was praying for a new day to come, every night, need to START AGAIN
God please... RAIN ON ME your blessings
Because I was a bad girl, I was a SAD GIRL
Looking for a right place to open the PANDORA'S BOX
But I got cut hundred times, NOTHING BREAKS LIKE A HEART
I destroyed myself by loving the first stranger I met in hell,
I never knew the consequences, I was so scared to be lonely,
I was so scared being alone even with the demons I wasn't mind,
I was faking it, all of it, I was fake
I never like falling in love to him or him or him too
I said I LOVE YOU, but I forgot BUT I LOVE ME MORE
They broke me to pieces, never understood that I'm HAPPIER THAN EVER
When I was away, coming back home, and keeping myself maybe I'm a MOTHER'S DAUGHTER
I need to heal and fix my FOREVER RAIN
The land I need to give it back TO MY YOUTH
I can't be BLUE AND GREY anymore, I can't
I knew who I was, PAINT IT, BLACK is my rock
But they made me forget to BREATHE
And gave me the worst of all time, CALIFORNIA DREAMIN'
They said it's okay 'cause EVERYBODY WANTS TO RULE THE WOLD
That wasn't what I wanted, they helped me to losing and erasing myself
They grabbed me down, cut my wings, using and playing me like a doll
Harassment, deceitful, intimidation, abusive, manipulation
He always interrupt everything that I say, I ain't important
He always sending me nudes like I ain't need no respect
He always making jokes of me like I'm scared with his bluffs
Despite all the bitterness I've got, I only want TO BE HUMAN
I was in a band, hoping a POPULAR SONG
It doesn't matter anymore, I just need to TRUST MY LONELY
I was in theater, yet I don't need any DRAMA CLUB anymore
As ALEWIFE to my long way home
Because I always be HIGHLY EMOTIONAL PEOPLE
And I need CHANGES, lots of them
To fix THE STORY NEVER ENDS of my past because it passed, I'm glad
THE GREATEST thing of all, now I'm here
YOU ARE READING
BUTTERFLY - LOVE
PuisiIn the beginning, I obey the heavy rain blindly. Now you're the hero of my book, the villain in the chapters, and the pain causing me art. This kind of art I am making is my favorite phase 'cause I feel everything all at once and it's all because of...