From a butterfly to a butterfly, it was somehow hard to believe that two kids could be so love foolish. Falling in love at first sight, maybe love wasn't as dreamy as it seemed. After all, with the crap they've been through, the two ex-lovers will a...
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2021. valentine's day. 8:30 am.
beomgyu, choi - writing to you.
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I know I'll never send this. I know this letter may just be my closure, even if you may never read it.
To be honest, I have no words. Yeonjun hyung had told me long ago that he'd be chasing you. He'd chase you with his whole heart, and I'd be left to dust. Originally, I thought he was the bad guy, but by 2017, by the time my heart had blackened to a crisp, I realized my faults.
To be truthful, I was planning on every inch of breaking up with you first.
Sure, I was out of line. I knew it all too well that I was. Every time I called you a bitch was the processor of trying to get my feelings to thicken over you. It was wrong, but it took me too long to figure that out-
and so, I lost you.
I owe you furthermore apologies than you have ever owed me, especially when you tried multiple times to mend our broken relationship back together.
Maybe I should start from the beginning, right? Just a recap of the feelings that I've hidden all these years... should be fine.
December 1st, 2013. We had our first kiss together. By that time, my feelings weren't... solid. Truly, I wanted someone to depend on, and you happened to be the first person who ever gave a damn about me other than my hyungs. You were beautiful. You were far better than I was. Having you in my life was a blessing, especially when my life before it was tainted by the life of girls who used to fan over me to get into my pants or share my notoriety.
However, for you, you wanted what was best for me- and Yang Yihwa, I appreciate you for that.
Oh, maybe I shouldn't say your name. I don't have the right to. I'll just refer to you as Ms. Yang.
Anyway, you may have thought my experience faltered your inexperience. Trust me, it was the first time I ever kissed a girl. The first time... I loved a girl.
I felt immense guilt when I saw that queasy look on your face the morning of it- when people decided to butt into our business. It was my fault, and if I could ever reverse time, I would've tried to be a better boyfriend, protected you better, and held onto you longer.
