Jiara s3

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T/W- mention of self harm

-Kie pov-

"Ok...So my Kook year was the worst year of my life J, I mean they were selfish, rich kids who would do anything to gain popularity" I sighed and continued, "the first couple of days were ok, I though that I could make it through a year without losing my mind, but then a couple minutes of bullying and rude comments and vandalism of my dorm, turned into days which turned into weeks. And I couldn't take it anymore so I..." I stopped at the end of that sentence, tears started streaming down my cheeks. JJ went to to pull me into a hug but I pulled away, "You need to see before you let yourself properly fall for me."

-JJ pov-

I had already fallen, hard. I saw tears fall harder down her face and my heart was breaking. She took a deep breath and said, "Ok please don't freak out ok?" I nodded and then she lifted up he shorts a little bit to reveal cuts and scars,
"Jesus!" I said,
My breath quickened and  her emotion turned for pain to disgust, like she hated herself. She turned to me and said,
"Not just there" She then lifted up her bikini top a little bit just below her breasts and there we more burns, cuts and scars. She looked back at me and looked scared. I grabbed her and embraced her in the biggest hug she started crying heavily into the crook of my neck. I stroked her hair and her lower back, I felt tears start to fall from my face but I quickly stopped them before she could see them.
She pulled away a few minutes later and said,
"Ur not disgusted or scared or freaked out or..."
"No" I said cutting her off, "Kiara you are the strongest, prettiest, badass girl I know, and for you to got through this and speak to me about it and show me, makes me like you even more, even if I didn't think that was possible." After if finished speaking she pulled me into another hug. Still crying, but a bit more controlled.
"Hey kie?" I said while pulling away,
"Yeah?" She said wiping her tears,
"How did Rafe know?"
She sighed again and looked down,
"He walked in on me once, I was in the library and I found this compass, pen thing, so I... u know." I lifted her chin so she was looking at me again and then she continued, "I didn't want anyone else to know cuz I didn't need another reason for them to pick on me, so I said I would do anything... He said that as long as I gave him 2 months worth of weed and coke money he would stay quiet, so I gave it him." My hands were resting on her arms as my fingers caressed her elbows. "J how, why would u like me? I'm so screwed up, my parents don't even want me anymore. I barely sleep, last night was the first night in about 3 months that I actually got a few hours of sleep. And I cry for no reason, my chest tightens, I feel like I can't breath, and I can't control my tears..."
At this point my heart was shattered watching her cry, put herself down, was breaking me little by little. Once again I pulled her into a hug,
"Kiara I want you to listen to me ok?" She nodded into my shoulder,
"First, You are not screwed up, it's called being human. Second, it's my fault ur parents hate the Pogues, not yours. Third, I think you might have anxiety." She pulled away and looked up at me, she leant in and gave me a short but sensational kiss.
"Thankyou" she said.
"No need, but I need you to promise you will come to me no matter what, ok?"
"Look out for each other? I like that." She said kissing me again.
'I love this girl,' I thought.

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I'm totally not crying 😭 OH AND THANKYOU Y'ALL SO MUCH FOR 2K READS LIKE WTF but rn imma need some time to recover, love y'all xx 😘😘

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