~writing prompts~

oct. 12 ♡︎

'where do i want to be this time next year'

i will start with saying that september-november/december is one of my favorite times of the year. just fall. absolutely beautiful.

where i PLAN on being this time next year is away at college for sure; like i 100% plan on going away for college.

i would like to be at a place physically where i am happier with myself, being at a better physical state. i would like to keep implementing healthy habits that i am trying my best to do now.

i would like to be in a better mental state; where i actually have some real confidence in myself. not just fake, obnoxious sort of fake confidence i guess. i also want to be happier with myself, just being happier ig. i want to be more positive about things. i want to be seen as a positive and happy person. that's what i want to be by this time next year.

i want to be in a good place spiritually. i plan on going to a religous college, so i think that will definitely help in that sense; but even til then i want to work on my spirituality and becoming a better person for myself.

this pains me greatly, but ik that by this time next year i still will be "alone". i put alone in quotes bc ik it's not going to be forever, and that my time will be coming, just not for a while. that doesn't mean that i won't try dating or anything like that, but ik that i won't be feeling those emotions and going through the things you do with 'that person'

but most all i want to be living my life to the fullest; and preparing & making myself better :))

i also just want to touch upon the subject of life. it really is crazy where it takes us; and some of the most unexpected things happen. some pretty world rocking stuff has been happening to me the last few days, both good and bad. the one thing that i've really taken away from this is to really value your life, bc you never know when that could be taken from you, whether you can control it or not. enjoy and cherish every moment, especially with your loved ones, bc you never know when they may leave this earth. i'm eternally grateful for the miracles that have happened in my life, and i can only pray for those people that have had their loved ones taken from them; that they can't experience those emotions and feelings they've had when around them; it's really hard.

but just know that it's never goodbye, it's see ya later :)