Just friends or more..

Chapter 16

Y/N POV

Who would have thought ... I didn't go to appointment yesterday.

I think, or rather I hope, that I did the right thing.

I don't even want to be confronted with this topic. It took me a week to get over it.
If I had met with Chris I would have to start from the beginning and I wouldn't have the strength to do that.

My make-up artist has been talking to me the whole time, but I'm on my own mind and don't really listen to her.

Opening the door of my trailer brings me back to reality. I turn my head to the door and see Elizabeth walks in.
I smile at her and cannot greet her with words due to the mental trance that I had just before.

Lizzie smiles back and sits down on the sofa that is placed in my trailer. I look at her waiting while my make-up artist continues to apply my make-up.

"You're unfocused today .. is there a reason?" Lizzie confronts me with what I was already thinking.

I try to be as unsecure and innocent as possible so as not to show anything.
I frown "I have no idea what you're talking about".

Lizzie raises her eyebrows and giggles softly "even though you are an excellent and talented actress, I can tell by your face that you know exactly what I am talking about".

I lower my head and look at the ground.
"what do you want to know?" I ask her, shaking my head and lifting my head again to look into her eyes.

"why have you been so unfocused lately?" Lizzie asks her question again.

I breathe in and out and shrug my shoulders.

"Well, I know one thing and that is that chris is the reason for your unfocusedness" she begins to suspect what makes me look surprised at her "but I don't know what he did".

"I'll leave you two alone for a moment," my make-up artist tells me and leaves my trailer.

Lizzie shows me with a wave of her hand and her raised eyebrows that she is still waiting for my answer.

"Well..uhm yes it's because of Chris" I start to formulate my official word "but I am to blame for my lack of focus because I think too much".

Elizabeth leans her back on the sofa and listens carefully and quietly to me.
"I was stupid and made myself wrong hopes. I gave free rein to my feelings even though it was wrong and especially the wrong time." I finish my justification and wait for a reply from Lizzie.

Lizzie has crossed her arms and looks at me "since when did you become aware of that?".

I turn to the mirror, breathing, and look down at the floor again "It started in Boston when we spent time together and ended on the plane when Chris told me that he and Jenny want to give their relationship another chance".

Elizabeth walks up to me and stops in front of me "you should have told me that much earlier".

She hugs me which makes me feel better, "I'm sorry".
Lizzie replies "no i'm sorry" immediately and we break away from the hug.

"what are you apologizing for?" I ask her confused and hold her hand.

"I should have spoken to you about it much earlier".

"oh lizzie, don't think like that ... you can't help it-" I didn't get any further with my answer because a knock interrupted me.

I and Elizabeth turn to the door.

"Come in" I say because Lizzie and I am expecting my make-up artist and I have nothing more to discuss that should be a secret so I wouldn't mind if she continues to style me.