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Jalex - Anxiety Atack

Alex has a panic attack and runs off stage, Jack helps him regress to cope so he can go back on stage.
CW: swearing, anxiety/panic attack

Alex: little
Jack: papa
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All was well during their show, Alex's new medication was working well and wasnt making him sick like the last one. He hadnt had an anxiety attack in weeks! It was odd, to him, but definitly a relief. He could do so much more stuff now that he wasnt riddled with anxiety attacks, having to walk away for a breather every hour or two. Jack, Rian and Zack were so happy for him, too.

They all ran on stage, adrenalin high as they started the first song of the night. The crowd cheered, so excited to see their favorite band performing not 20 feet infront of them (for those in the first row). It wasnt till they got through about half of the 3rd song that Alex stammered over his words. His chest felt tight all of the sudden, heart skipping its normally steady beats. He tried to keep playing without singing, letting the crowd sing for him till he dropped his pick and couldnt play. He turned around, cheeks flushed in embarrassment. He couldnt do this, he needed out. He needed off stage, he couldnt do this- he took his guitar off and ran off stage, a hand over his mouth as he teared up.

He was so frustrated with himself, leaning against a wall as he tried to take deep breaths to relax. A hand rested on his chest, as if it would relieve the tightness. His heart pounded out of his chest, sweat dripping from his brow as his skin chilled in a cold sweat. He thought the medication was working, so why was this happening now? He hated the feeling, he just wanted it to go away. He wasnt used to it anymore, it was scary. He wanted Jack, he wanted his papa.

"Alex?" Jack called, voice searching fr Alex's attention as he stood infront of him. "Im gonna touch you now, okay?" He warned, placing a gentle hand on the panicked mans shoulder. Regardless, he flinched but then leaned into it.

"I-Im sorry- i dont know what happened and then i- im sorry-" He stammered, breaths coming in short gasps and leaving through frustrated huffs.

"Shh. Youre okay, you didnt do anything wrong honey. C'mere." He cooed, pulling Alex foreward into his arms. Alex whimpered and melted into the touch.

"M sorry..." He mumbled, voice softer as he felt his mind slip into his safe space, his little space. Tears welled in his eyes, the uncomfortable pounding in his chest being confusing and scary for the boy.

"Shh, no being sorry, bubba. Youre okay." He spoke softly, lifting Alex into his arms with ease. The little didnt respond, simply hiding his face in his papa's shoulder, arms wrapped tightly around his neck. Jack rubbed his back, humming a blink-182 tune to soothe his baby boy.

Eventually, Alex calmed enough to let go of his boyfriend and 'force' himself to be big once again. "I dont know what happened... The meds were working..." He sighed, letting his forehead rest against Jacks. He was frustrated beyond belief, a 'stupid anxiety attack' as he often put it, interuppted a show. Wasted his fans time.

"It cant stop all of the anxiety attacks, youre still getting used to the meds." He reminded. "You think you can go back on stage?" He asked, no judgment or forecefullness in his voice.

"Yeah, yeah... Thank you." He sighed, pecking Jacks lips before pulling away completely, leading him back to the stage.  

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sorry this is short and not well written. Im not in a great place right now, but i still wanted to give you guys an update.