PURSUING OUR DREAMS

22

"I'm Home."i said after i opened the door.

walang tao sa loob ng condo dahil may trabaho ngayon si Kyle kaya pumunta siya sa office niya.

i'm exhausted.it's a long day.hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko,kakauwi ko lang galing sa Reunion.

it's 10pm and i'm not hungry because i ate dinner earlier.

tinanggal ko ang sapatos ko at nilagay sa gilid ng pintuan bago ako dumiretso sa kusina para kumuha ng tubig.

pagkatapos ay dumiretso na ako sa sala para magpahinga dahil hindi pa ako nakakapaglinis ng katawan,ayokong humiga ng hindi ako nakakaligo dahil madumi ang katawan ko.

nakakapagod ang araw na ito.hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman.

kanina naman ay masaya ako,dahil nakakausap ko silang lahat ng maayos.

pero parang may mali.

kahit ayoko itong isipin ay kusa itong pumapasok sa isip ko.

pakiramdam ko kasi ay kung hindi naman ako napunta sa sitwasyon ko ngayon ay hindi naman sila magiging mabuti sa akin ngayon.

kung hindi ba ako pumayat ay matatanggap padin ba nila ako?pakiramdam ko ay hindi.

kasi alam kong naging ganun lang at trato nila sa akin nung nalaman nilang may pangalan na ako.

i was crying the whole time,because i don't know what to feel anymore.

i'm upset and confused at the same time.nakakainis na ganoon lang sila magtrato at parang hindi nila naalala ang mga ginawa nila nung nakaraan.

hindi ba sila nakokonsensya?nung dati ba ay naisip nila kung anong nararamdaman namin kapag tinatrato nila kami ng ganon?

kahit ayokong mag isip ay kusa ko itong nararamdaman.

napatawad ko naman na sila dati palang,sa panlalait nila sa akin noon,wala na sa akin yun ngayon.

kasi yun din yung rason kung bakit ko sinasabi sa sarili ko na kailangan kong magbago,so that they won't do that anymore.

iniisip ko nalang na ginagawa lang nila yun for me to look forward,to look for the bright side.

i look at the window and saw a nice view.that one makes me feel at ease right now.

i took my phone and checked my social media.i clicked the twitter app and checked my account.

it's been a long time since i posted,ilang months na ang nakalipas.

i tweet a sad face and everyone asked what happen.i just did that because sometimes,i post something depends on my mood right now.

while scrolling through my other social media,i look at the door when someone opened it.

nakita kong kakapasok lang ni Kyle at mukhang nagmamadali pa pag uwi.

he's wearing a suit with a brief case and a paper bag on the other hand.

"why are you sweating?"i asked in confusion.

"Why are you sad?"he asked.tumakbo palapit sa akin bago umupo at binigay ang paperbag.

ano to?i asked myself before opening the paperbag,my mood suddenly change when i saw an ice cream!it's cookies and cream.

"is this for me?"i asked him.

"obvious ba?"he raised his brow.

"why did you gave me this?"sabi ko bago ko buksan.

"i saw you tweet.tell me everything.i'm listening."he said before he put his head on my shoulder,resting.

and i did.i tell him everything.my thoughts and all.

"do you want to go to palawan?we can spend a week there."he asked me.

"what?mag leleave ka nanaman for a week?matatambakan ka pagbalik mo."i told him.

"don't worry about me.i just want to spend my month with you.i can't visit you in korea kung babalik ka na next month."sabi niya.

"okay.if you say so."

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