PURSUING OUR DREAMS

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i woke up from the annoying sound that comes from my phone.someone is calling in the early morning and i don't want to answer it but then i saw the name,i immedietly answered it.

"Hmm?"i greet him with my sleepy voice.i'm so tired from last night because of the shoot that i need to attend.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE!"Shawn greet me.i nodded but i didn't realize that today is my birthday.

i'm so busy for others yet i forgot my own birthday.it's not that i don't love myself but my schedule is so tight that i don't even know what's happening right know.

"Thank you!"i thanked my brother as i sat on my bed.i grabbed the water bottle from my side table and drink all of it.

i slept and i'm dehydrated so i need water.kumakanta din ako so kailangan ay maalaga ako sa lahat.i don't want to suffer again that's why i'm taking care of myself.

i looked at my full body mirror and saw myself with a messy hair.i braded this in to two and now i'm gonna take it off to achieve the natural wave.

i grab my glasses to put it on because my eyes looked so sleepy.

'i'm sorry for not there with you to celebrate your birthday but you know that i love you po."Shawn said.i smiled.

"okay lang ako.and don't worry about me because i'm used to it now."i said.it's true.marami nang taon ng hindi kami magkasamang magcelebrate sa lahat pero thankful ako na hanggang ngayon ay nakakasurvive kami for everyday.

and i'm happy because even though we are busy,we still have time for each other.kahit nakakapagod ang araw ay gusto ko siyang makausap dahil sa kaniya ko lang naikukwento ang mga nangyayari sa akin sa pang araw araw.

i do have my friends but i just don't want to tell them my thoughts.pakiramdam ko kasi kapag naikuwento ko sa kanila kung gaano ako kablessed,baka isipin nila na nagyayabang ako or something.

it's not that i'm bragging pero hindi ko sila masisisi dahil mindset nila yun.kahit sabihin ko na hindi ko intensiyon yun,hinid naman mababago ang isip nila.

after we talked,i do straight to my bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth.this is my everyday routine.kahit mag isa ay okay lang kasi mas masaya para sa akin yung ganito.

it's better to be alone sometimes because i want to have a peaceful life.

pagkatapos mag ayos ng sarili ay bumaba na ako para magluto ng almusal.i don't want to have some maid because i can do it by myself.minsan din naman ay pumupunta dito ang manager ko so hindi naman ako nalulungkot.

i cooked spaghetti for my breakfast.dati ay niluluto ko lang ito kapag may handaan pero dahil birthday ko naman ay okay lang yun.it's my favorite that's why i made it.

i grab my phone and took a photo of my cooked spaghetti and posted on my instagram story.a lot of people saw it and i thanked some of them whos greeting me.a lot of them greeted me but i can't thanked them so i just posted that i love them and i'm thankful that they support me for everything.

while eating,i'm planning on what should i do for today.should i go shopping?but i have some sponsors naman.should i travel?but my schedule is tight and i don't want to suffer if ever i'm done with my vacation.

habang nag iisip ay biglang may kumatok sa pintuan.i opened it and saw my manager.her name is Mira.

"Hi po Madam."she greeted me and hugged me.thankful ako na half filipino siya and lumaki sa pilipinas so nagtatagalog din siya.she liked calling me madam because i look liked a rich tita or something but i don't mind her calling me that.

i hugged her back and she greeted me a happy birthday and i thanked her.

"wow spaghetti!!!penge po ako."she asked me so i nodded.kumuha siya ng plato at nagsandok ng pasta at nilagay ang sauce sa ibabaw.

"filipino style ba ito madam?"she asked before she sat infront of me.

"haha yes."i answered her.i do like filipino style.siguro ay nasanay lang ako.pansin ko sa iba ay ang mga spaghetti nila ay maaasim kaya nung una kong natikman ay hindi ko naubos.it's not that i don't like it but i'm not used to it.

while we were eating.nagkukwentuhan kami for random things like totoo ba ang alien,napanoood na ba niya yung top five angel caught in cam,paranormal activity or asmr mukhang.

"madam suggest ko lang.natanggap ko na kasi yung mga regalo na ibinigay ng mga brands and fans mo na nasa bahay ko ngayon.naisip ko lang na kung gusto mong ivlog na nag uunbox ka tapos ipost mo sa youtube channel mo.kasi hindi mo naman mapapasalamatan lahat so naisip ko na doon ka nalang mag thank you."Mira suggested.

oo nga noh.that's a nice suggestion and i guess ay magagawa ko din naman yun dahil sabi ni Mira ay cinlear na daw niya ang mga events ko for today because it's my birthday.

i agreed and after we're eating.nagbihis na ako ng sususotin ko.i put my brown baggy pants top with a black turtle neck and i just put some beige blazer.i put my sunglasses and my high boots.

pagkatapos mag bihis ay sumunod na ako kay Mira dahil sinabi niyang hihintayin niya nalang ako sa parking lot dahil nandoon na ang driver ko.

we reached the studio where i'm going to film.mabuti nalang at nandito na din ang mga regalo at nakalagay sa gilid kaya nag simula na ako.

madaming ibinigay sa akin ang mga brands like Shirts,Jeans.Shoes.Hat.Shades,Watch and some jewelrys. i thanked them before i proceed to unbox my present from the fans.

a lot gave my personal letters,foods,snacks from the philippines,teddy bears,diy bracelets and others.i thanked them because i'm so blessed to have them.

parang dati lang ay wala akong nakukuhang regalo at si Kyle and Shawn lang pero ngayon na marami nang nagbibigay sa akin ngayon,sila naman ang wala.

a part of me is sad to think that.i used to got a present from them and now,they don't even give me some.hindi ako materyal na tao pero nakakalungkot lang na wala silang regalo sa akin.

"thank you everyone for giving me some presents and for those who greet me in my social media account,thank you so much i love you all.this is the and of the unboxing-"i stopped talking when Mira put the last Present in the table.

"sorry madam.ngayon ko lang nakita.ang bilin pa naman sa akin ay ibigay ko daw po sainyo dahil iiyak ka daw po kapag hindi mo yan nakuha."Mira told me.

i unbox the Present and saw a teddy bear.akala ko ay normal lang ito but then i saw the bracelet and it was the same as mine.i looked at my wrist that kyle gave me.hindi ko kasi ito tinatanggal.

i looked at the card and i cry when so what's inside it.

it was the picture of me and Kyle when we took the photo in the playground.that's his first time when he got the cellphone that his parents gave to him.

'Happy Birthday my princess.'

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