i always wanna die sometimes [jaewoo]

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tw // mentions of death and suicide !!! 

jaehyun had been in love with the idea of death, his thoughts were full of negativity and has been so pessimistic about life ever since. maybe it's because of the situation he was in, his family suffered so much because of his abusive father that caused them a lot of trouble because of his debts and he was the one being blamed for it while his mother left them for another guy. he endured all of that, all of the sufferings he went through as the breadwinner of the family he knew that he needs to be strong for his little sister, aera that somehow was the reason that keeps him going on with life at least. he swore on earth that no matter what happens he will always protect his little sister, aera. but after what his father said and did to him he thought of giving up because he didn't know what's the purpose of holding on if this is what he keeps on receiving. so he planned to put aera to an orphanage and he promised that he will come back which is not true actually after he drove aera to the orphanage he planned to buy drugs at the drugstore and overdose himself with it.


looking straight at the mirror he once again reflected himself on all of the things he went through, his eyes were bloodshot red and his heart feels so heavy. he knows what he did to aera was so wrong and he cannot do anything about it, he wanted to do something but after the threat his father gave to him, he knew that what he did is the only way he can protect his little sister from any harm, he broke his number one promise to keep aera by his side no matter what. his father threatened him that he will hurt aera if jaehyun will not pay all of the debts that his own father had caused. he took the pills that he brought and took all of it in one go he felt dizzy so he went to the tub and filled it in with water and tried to drown himself.