i always wanna die sometimes [jaewoo]

ten

A/N: long chapter ahead!! after this chapter is the epilogue and then it's the end. i wanna advance my thanks to everyone who is reading this.

jaehyun woke up with white lights surrounding him, he squinted and rubbed his both eyes to scan where he was, he was lying on a hospital bed with tubes connected to his mouth and nose and there's someone at his bedside sleeping it was someone he didn't want to see, it was his father. when jaehyun moved it awoken his father. 

"jae y-you're a-awake,  someone please call the doctor! my son is now conscious!" 

jaehyun wants to move his mouth to talk and his whole body to move but it feels so weak and it felt like he was frozen. he despised his father, after what he did to them he had the audacity to show up here and pretend that he cares for his son whom he had caused all the trouble that's why his life became miserable and a complete mess. he wants to curse at him but he can't since he cannot move his lips and there's also a tube in it. he scanned the whole room to search for someone but he can't seem to find him, he only found his little sister, aera sleeping on the couch hugging his little teddy bear. after a while doctors began to come inside the room, there are also nurses who came to visit jaehyun. 

"it's a miracle that you're awake now! we thought that you wouldn't wake up by the time we had put you on life support, give it some more time before he can fully recover and maybe even talk i think a week or 2 and after that, he can communicate now with you guys, we will still look after him for about a month and we will also have him on therapy so there's nothing to worry, your son will fully recover, we promise"

"thank you, doc!"

after that the doctors and the nurses left the room, leaving jaehyun with his father and aera sleeping. about a week or 2 slowly, jaehyun began to talk well and communicate with his nurses since he had undergone speech therapy, he also can talk with aera now though his body is still in the process of healing, he's on his wheelchair for a while so that he can move around for quite some time and not always be on the bed. 

"my hyung is now good at talking, i'm glad you woke up! i was worried and i actually cried because i thought you will leave me again"

"don't worry, brother is here to protect you once again"

aera then hugged his big brother whom she missed so much. jae can't help but let out a tear since he never knew that this will happen again. half of jae's memory was erased but the doctors guaranteed them that it will come back if they will help jae to remember, the only thing jae can remember is his family and jungwoo. he still had no idea how he ended up at the hospital, all he can remember is that he was searching for jungwoo since he didn't come back from the apartment and he also remembered about the letter that woo wrote for him, that's the last memory he had for jungwoo. he wanted to ask his father but he just can't seem to build himself up to talk to him after all, he despised him. 

"how are you doing son?!"

jaehyun didn't answer his father, he still hates him the former just stared at the window.

"i know you hate me but please listen to me, i am now in the custody of aera, i got her papers from the orphanage and i even brought us a house so that we can all stay there, I'm really trying to prove myself to you, son. i wanted you to know that i am willing to change myself just so you can forgive me because believe me i regret all of the stupid shitty things i have done to you and to our family, i know these words wouldn't mean anything to you not until i prove it to you but please give me a chance to change for the better"

"really?! just about know? where i'm here at the hospital and that i believe i was even in the verge of dying and now it's the time where you have realized all of the mistakes you've done in the past? that's bullshit dad! if you wanted to change then you should've changed before where mom hasn't left us, and no you're not in the custody of aera, i am i was the one who got her out of the orphanage, no scratch that! jungwoo did" 

"i know, i was so wrong for that but there's one thing i wanna clarify, i did get aera out of the orphanage because you were in a coma for a year, not you and not that jungwoo you are saying. i did my best to get aera out of the orphanage and i even entered her in a prestigious school so that she can have an education and prove to you that i had changed, that i really want our family back" 

"what?!, i was in a coma... for a year?! no that can't be"

"then why do you think you're in a hospital if not for a coma?"

"i passed out in an apartment, jungwoo's apartment and then i woke up here at the hospital"

his father knew jae's memory is slowly coming back, he started to remember some little details from the past. 

"but how did i get into a coma?!"

"you were found by your friend, mark in your place drowning in the bathtub with pills on the sink, he immediately called for an ambulance and luckily you were saved but you went into a coma because of the drug overdose, it was for a year, jae everyone including me, your father whom you despised so much waited for a whole year for you to wake up, even aera waited. i remember she would always ask me to drive her to the hospital so that she can see if his hyung had woken up but each day she failed to see you awake, that wrecked me to see a little girl feeling a bit hopeless each day, until you had woken up she became so excited to see you that day, i'm glad that you did wake up i don't know what i will do and say to aera if you didn't wake up" 

jaehyun was left speechless about all of the things that his father said. 

"then what about jungwoo? where is he?! i wanna see him" 

"there's was no jungwoo, son..."

"it was all in your memory"