i always wanna die sometimes [jaewoo]

four

jaehyun lost a lot of blood but luckily jungwoo was able to donate some of it to him since their blood type is compatible with each other, talk about destiny!. jungwoo let jaehyun rest for a while so he went outside to buy the latter some food. when he went back he saw jaehyun awake and is watching some television. he sat down beside him and handed him some of the food he had brought from the convenience store he brought him some noodles and some fruit also. he cooked the noodles for him and he handed it to him, he even insisted to feed him.

"it's okay i can manage"

"okay but does your wrist still hurt?! you know the wound was really deep"

"it's alright jungwoo, i can do it besides i'm not a baby anymore"

"okay whatever you say, be careful it's hot though"

jaehyun gently blows his cup of noodles and took a bite of it, it was indeed delicious and he was craving it for a while now since he hasn't eaten for days. he also ate the fruits that jungwoo brought him since he was really hungry. he finished all of the food that jungwoo brought him and thanked him for buying him food. jungwoo said that there's no need to thank him since he's always there to help him. 

"why do you even do this?!"

"do what?!"

"this! all of this! all this helping, you barely even know me, and yet here you are helping me a complete stranger whom you just met at a subway station, buying me food, feeding me, rushing me to the hospital where in fact i should be there at the subway station with my cold lifeless body laying on the ground"  

"like what i said from you at the very beginning, i value life so much to the point that i can't bear to see someone take his or her own life"

"even if it's hard for them to live it?!"

"there's always a solution to a problem and death is not always the option, maybe whatever you are experiencing right now is too hard for you but trust me someday you wouldn't have to bear it anymore because there will be someone who will help you to surpass it"

jaehyun inhaled deeply and sighed before he continued to talk. 

"2 years ago my mom left me and my little sister for another guy because my dad developed a gambling addiction, the reason why our family had been buried with debt ever since my dad is also abusive that's why my mom left him, he would constantly beat me up whenever he's drunk and i would get bruises and bleed my nose every time that went on until now. so i promised myself that i need to be successful so that when i have the money i can live on my own and get the fuck out of that house along with my sister. i saved so much money until i have enough i was about to inquire for an apartment near my college not until my dad knew about it and he was so angry to the thought of me abandoning him so he got all of my money without me knowing and spend it on his gambling addiction of course and even threatened me to hurt my little sister if i didn't pay all of our debt that he had caused so i put my sister to an orphanage since i cannot take good care of her even though i promised. i know what i did to her was not right but i didn't have a choice and i thought death is the only way to solve it so i planned to commit suicide not until you found me"

jungwoo became speechless because of what he just heard from jaehyun. he cannot believe that this was all of what the former had been going through with life, now he understands how hard it is for him to bear and the fact that he's also the breadwinner of the family really speaks a lot.