i always wanna die sometimes [jaewoo]

three

tw // mentions of wrist cutting, blood, and suicide !!!

"ouch! my hands you're hurting me"

"ok sorry, we're here"

when jungwoo let go of jaehyun's wrist he saw how many slits he had and some of them are even fresh and is still kind of bleeding, jaehyun noticed that jungwoo saw his slits so he quickly hid them with his hoodie. 

"follow me"

"where are we even going? i just agreed to go to a near cafe with you"

"to my house, there's something we need to get"

"like what?!"

"something important"

the former just followed jungwoo without any idea where they are going, they reached an apartment building where jungwoo lives, they went inside jungwoo's unit his interior was just minimal and he just have a plain ol' white wallpaper for the background of his apartment. jaehyun was fascinated by how minimal the design of jungwoo's apartment was but he also loved how compact and aesthetically pleasing the vibe and ambiance of his apartment were. and then it hit him, another flashback... jaehyun always dreamed of being independent, living on his own, and owning an apartment maybe even a house and lot so he worked really hard to save up for his future but when his father knew about it the latter didn't like the idea because he thought that jaehyun would be abandoning them by living on his own so his father got all of his money and spend it on gambling, that's how they got into a really big debt and now he is being blamed for something he clearly doesn't have any fault in. 

"sit here, wait for me"

jungwoo came back with a first aid kit in his hands. 

"give me your hand"

"what?! why?!"

"i saw it, please it's bleeding... you're bleeding if i didn't treat that you'll lose a lot of blood and there's a tendency that you will pass out if i let that happen so please just lend me your hand" 

"ok look! i only agreed to talk with you not to treat me like i'm some kind of baby, this slit was intentional because just like what you saw a while ago i'm suicidal and i wanna end it so if lose a lot of blood and pass out please just let me be, i'm tired please let me just rest"

jaehyun rushed to get out of jungwoo's apartment unit, his steps began to feel heavy and he feels like he's about to pass out, his visions began to blur and his head felt like it's spinning. slowly he began to pass out and laid flat on the floor unconscious while his wrist is still bleeding. jungwoo rushed over to jaehyun and called an ambulance. jaehyun was rushed to the hospital and jungwoo stayed there with him for a while since he clearly doesn't know any of jaehyun's relatives that he can call. he stayed there beside jaehyun and waited until the latter gained consciousness. after a while jaehyun gained consciousness and all he can see was white he  then saw jungwoo beside him sleeping, jungwoo was awaken by the presence of jaehyun.

"you're awake"

"where am i?! 

"at the hospital"

"what happened?!"

"you passed out and you lose a lot of blood"

"why did you even rushed me here, like i said you should've just let me be"

"look! i don't wanna sound rude, as much as you want to die now i can't bear to see someone  die there inside my apartment, they may even suspect me to be the killer when in fact i didn't do it so i have no choice but to rush you here, plus i know you still have something to tell me"

"like what?!"

"your own story"